physic entropy

more sophisticated and correct name for inner confusion, I have felt it so many time and it is not a great feeling. and when it happens I hopelessly try to apply random remedy to just get out of it. which is more like eating donuts to heal a wound.

so what it is, and why does it happens ?
it happens when there is no inner order in consciousness. the wandering mind when don’t have a clear goal generate kind of feeling and emotion which are really bad and takes a lot of physic energy and left feeling unfulfilled. this is the dark side of not knowing why. this is pretty much suffering. and wait it gets worse. now I don’t want to feel that so I end up doing something that could even temporarily put consciousness in order. just like a loan for vacation. so I ended up not enjoying vacation because I haven’t earned it, the original problem is still there. and now I have a new problem that loan.

what it does ?
when I don’t have a order in consciousness. mind gives me some options to worry about and they are like weed, and the most unskillful thing I do is I actually identify with them. for an example if I have no clear goal than my mind tell me ohh I feel bad because I am alone right now. only if I could be with some friends how happy I would be. than I go out with some friends and now my mind tells me ohh as soon as I come back home I would be so happy. just running around in circle and expecting I am cooking food.

so what is a correct remedy for it ?
a very clear goal that is inline with a sense of purpose is the correct remedy for it. and a quick feedback loop that could reassure progress makes it full circle. this feedback loop can also help to make sure current challenge is right for current skill. and when I do that it creates a harmony. and it is a well known concept called flow.