Social reset

A full circle. One way or another I have experinced pretty much all the aspect of social life. And solitudal life, I am also very comfortable in pretty much all the social situations. You know the cost associated and have a skill to manage social life.

Now the question what do I want? and what should I expect?

Alone-
I lived alone in rakkar. I lived alone in dharamkot and bangalore, and I excperienced strong urge of social stimulation. Maybe it wasn’t social stimulation but plain urge and soical stimulation became just an object. In that desperation I found myself making feeble attempts by calling akhil, or talking to strangers. Alone I feel dry. That’s the theory.

Being controlled by parents -
The constant attempts to control by mom, sometimes by dad and rarely by brothers to be the way they imagine me to be. Judgment and advice. This makes me uncomfortable.

Relationship with bhai|prachi - there is good give and take and closeness, as long as there is force or weight.

Friendship with J-
Now J is the kind of person I am, so there is a mutual understanding. And this makes conversation resonating. I usually have a good time with her. Especially as we are getting more closer.

Relationship with Lin- Comfort and acceptance, and intimacy and reliance. This actually feels pretty good and satisfying. If done in balance. This feels like a thuderbolt.

Relationship with Akhil|Pratap|Tushar|Ashish|Sohai||Dhapola|Anurag|Raveendra - These are the old relationships. Built of a different foundation. As you are changing and they are changing, the foundations has been moved. And it has become altered.

Relationship with strangers - The grammar guy in your guest house, these conversations are forced. I am not really enjoying them but out of politeness I have to do them.

Facebook - the acceptance of other people.

Community like Yoga studio- a1000yoga was a nice warm place to hang out and flourish relationship like Lin and J. There is also warmth in that place.

Community like toastmasters| couchsurfing - It depends but you do meet decent people, mix with all kind of people.

Building communities - Building communites like metainsight.