spiritual sunday #31

It was a mix week, I started last week with quite a strong determination of following a basic ritual of health and than building on top of it later. which went well for 3 days and than completely dropped out after that. throughout the week I was timepassing with mild depression, I took a day of in between, than there was iftar and I went shopping and the that night I was high on emotions and than next day. after seeing just one image that high vanished and a mild low appeared. I cultivated a new habit that I wake up at 6 and snooze till 8:30. i could not stop doing it. whole week I did that. it is quite clear that without some strong resolution it will continue to be like that. every now and than I was telling myself look I am observing all this.

spirituality - I did meditation in the beginning of the week I did two session of around 40-50min each. slowly it went to 20 min. the interest of me and literature I was reading is jiggling between freedom from the known and how to win friend and influence people. somewhere in between i read quite as well I guess.

health - ahh first 3 days I did the max30 thing and than kaboom. I don’t even remember why I stopped doing it. ah yaa I could not wake up in the morning. most of the time in last part of week I eat shit and drink cola.

work - I am not enjoying work at all. not only that I am asking stupid questions to other. so i don’t have to put my mind into the problem. using hit and trial methods to solve it.

family - it’s good, sort of autopilot mode.