entering experiential knowledge.

so I went out yesterday. have a couple of drinks. something I was chastising myself from quite a while . over the moral concept and this idea that it can severally disturb the calmness of mind. I don’t want anymore concepts. it doesn’t really help that much. experiment and learn by trying and observing this is the only thing that make sense to me. and there is a lot of senseless but true fear involve in trying new things.

so how did it felt ! It felt ok, a nice and decent start. I like that I went with a person with whom I could talk with a bit more vulnerability. I felt like I released some energy or something. this was the thing I was looming from last week or so. and at the moment mentally I feel bit free. it I think whole night I was thinking about god knows what. a bit more noise I can say. in the morning when I did meditation, I felt a bit dull too.

ofcourse the level of conversation goes a bit more personal, vulnerable authentic and deeper. this also puts some emotional push towards things I secretly want but procrastinating from ages around appearance and personality. which secretly hindering progress in any direction.

until I am in dubai. I would like to invest more and more towards this extroverted side of me. experientially.