the shell.

so again I am like a little ( laughing deeply ) confused what exactly I am doing. it is like I take my eyes a little of and I am standing right in the same spot. so here are the few things I am doing in quite zig zag way.

• cultivating social skills.
• knowing myself internally.
• planning exit.

cultivating social skills - basically I am reading here. making broader sense of what exactly I am laking and what exactly I am looking for.along the way I am making small, small efforts like taking lead on ordering food, taking people out, putting my thoughts out in front of people. I think what I am doing is fairly good. and once I have enough knowledge to make a framework. I can go all in. ya some time i want to play big leagues and felt a bit vyakul ( i wish they had a word for this in english )

knowing myself internally - don’t go back to sleep. I am finding myself preaching more about it ( in my mind ) rather than making more sincere efforts. I am also now sort of on my own. I can’t really follow a rule here. or set of instruction and expect result. the best I can do is understand what they are saying and take it as a advice. so this become an uncertain place. you need to make some guideline/framework here. specially if you are going on your own.

planning exit - I will be staying here in dubai for next 2 months max. and I also need to plan how can I make this exit smooth. and what to do after this. this will buy me financial freedom till the end of next year. it is impossible to plan something way further. but it will make sense to plan something for next month or two.