Vipassana.
Vipassana I have done 10 times served 4 times.
The practice of vipassana is simple, you observe the breath and sharpen the focus and then observe the sensation from top to bottom and bottom to top and realise the impermanence and changing nature of it and build equanimity based on it.
Vipassana claims to purify the mind from the defilement, increases the self awareness exponentially, and leads to insights into the truth. with experience I totally support it.
There is an incredible chance ahead of me, truly incredible, 30 days of cleaning and purification. I am in a good shape all around and I want to fully take advantage of this opportunity. I will do 2+3+4+1 meditation only when I need to go for the ureine I will do it. regardless of how I feel what thoughts coming to the mind, they are still just the feeling and thought and my job is to not engage in them but to practice to let them go.
There are certain obstacle in the path as well. Lethargy, thoughts and agitation, duality of thoughts and confusion of I, lack of energy.
When the lethargy is the challenge, simply go through it, let the body adjust. their is ample rest, and rejuvination, when the motivation is the issue, let it be, when the agitation let it be, lack of energy sit through it, make as much effort as you can and then let go, let it refill and then make more effort, see these cycles. If I didn’t react and just watched the purpose is served.
There are two key challenge to watch out, one is loosing in some scheme of the mind, second is giving out of any obstacle.
If I can go through the trials and all and complete the retreat as mentioned above and reap the fruits in the form of insights, purity and increased self awareness and control over mind or I can buy into some obstacle and came out feeling defeated and justify it all later.
My job is fairly simple here, i know what needs to be done, 10 days I need to make every effort in the given format for breath sharpening and the next 20 days same effort for the vipassana. Let all the obstacle come and go, any things other than that means I have gone side ways.