Transcendental mind and the drop of thought.

Acceptance| Rejection| Sexual Urges || Authenticity | compassion | learn from others - These are the deep samskaras and fundamental stones that are swirling the water. The sexual urges are slowly dissolving and need of acceptance and fear of rejection is also quite visible, it is the matter of time they will be melted. I can actually start doing the weekly course on Authenticity, compassion and leaning from others and maybe laughing at myself.

Difference in perspective - this is the most fundamental truth. there are differences in the vantage points, not only differences but actual samskaras are different which leads to acceptance and rejection and taking things personally, assuming, abusing, controlling, making fun etc.

Social balance - At this point, if I live alone, I am going to feel at unease, The smiling face of lin, a good...

There are certain social engagements triggers certain feelings. That sensation becomes the caues of desires. these are acceptance, winning, proving, etc. release these things from yourself and embrace authenticity and compassion.

In the absence of social interaction is there something fundamental is missing. I do feel kind of disoriented without social interaction, It feels kind of good to live with lin.

On the fundamental level it is simply the difference in prespective, taking it personally, acceptance, rejection. There are a dozen of fundamental social design patterns emerges based on the nature of mind. just learn and master them.

There are few things that happens in a relationship, you can’t stretch, pull, and do more, know these patterns and just learn to live with it. there are some relationships which are immutable friend, family, partner. and then there are some...

There are a voice, sensation, and samskaras. the static sense of I is ego. the goal is to transcend this and train it.

To transcend it I need to practice vipassana very seriously, and the study of scriptures. wake up at 6:20 take a bath. study the scripture for next 20 mins and then meditate for next 40 mins. followed by 5 min metta. in the evening study scripture for 30mins and do meditation for next 40 mins and 5 mins metta at 9.00 make sure you root these two time regardless of anything. this is your libration.

To train the mind, be in the world, and participate in. there is a mechanism of sensation and change in behavior that is taking place all the time. If I can participate with a stable mind I can grow very fast.

The second aspect is weekly course, that is mindfully integrating the most leveraging behavior, for this I need to write a eassy for that virtue, than make sure I am...

The challenge I am facing at the moment is I am getting too close to mind, It is constantly speaking and I am getting lost, it says it wants to impress others and so many other things. it is afraid, happy and all. and I take it seriously. there are two things I need to work upon, one is transcending, the other is training.

The structure of mind is simple. voice, sensation, and samskaras are building blocks. it follows the predefined structure and samskaras seems to be very real.

For the transcending, the practice of vipassana is essential and reading of scriptures. these two will eventually kill the ignorance and lead to transcendence.

The second is the training of the mind. The weekly course and engagement in the world with the constant movement of tapas of purification is the way. I can mold the mind in any way I desire there is a simple process and tapas.

for the vipassna make...

• Handling mature behavior - Shantu
• Intellectual conversation - Amritesh
• The connection and networking - Akshaya
• Entrepreneurship and relationships - Konark.

One aspect is I am getting regular opportunities socially, based on my action there is automatic adjustment happening. Second these actions tell me where I need to work. and with a clear understanding, I can resolve that situation, change my reactions and choose more optimal reaction.

On the deeper layer, I need to work on self-satisfaction and thought that creates the unease. The need of acceptance, the effect of relationship.

Second I need clarity on a romantic relationship. things are moving with lin, but I need to know my stance, so this is the field where I need to rethink. what is a relationship? how we form the relationship, foundation and mastery of relationship of all kind. family, team, enemy and all kind of relationships.

The mastery of communication, masterful communication and graceful social interaction in each situation,

Mastering the art of social communication...

Work -

I am enjoying the teaching part and moving very fast in terms of learning. I have gone through command line, git, html/css, responsive, javasctipt/jquery, nodejs, express, webapi, mongodb, code reiews and sessions are also helping me to get hands on very fast.

most of the part the need of the student dictate what I need to learn. Every morning for the 9:12:30 I learn myself. then I prepare and take the session.

going forward this week, I will learn the

• Async programming
• ES6 right parts.
• Functional programming
• OOP
• TDD
• React and redux.

in terms of teaching I will cotinue taking one session followed by code reviews. this week make a spreadsheet so you know you have taken code
review for everyone.

• In terms of project fininsh the mongoose and mongodb. connect the todo list with mongodb.
• dataset project.

I am feeling strongly passionate about it, and it is good for me as...

The difference of opnion is I want to go to gujurati, amritesh wants to go to kalp vraksha. I don’t like being waited and he feels insecure and take it as personal defeat.

I can cut off the communication, leave without telling him and it will kill the relationship same thing with him. we can bring the topic in front of each other. and discuss it.

He is already experiencing low self esteem and people in his batch severely testing him, and he is taking everything personally an attack of him, than maybe even me working more clearly makes him feel uncomfortable.

I don’t want to compete, I want to live a good life relationship and consistent growth, possibly learn from him and help him to grow as well. I also want to have clear independence.

I am withdrawing and he is taking potshots.

He is not very mature, he is smart, his self worth is highly rooted in other people’s opinion. He is...

there is a lot of thoughts in the mind. A voice speaking constantly, it is not going anywhere soon. State of mind will be the same, you might loose interest in it eventually, but you know it will be like this. Sometime high when it gets what it want, sometime low when people made fun of me.

A sincere practice of vipassana is letting me go inside and deeper and deeper. First the movies left than sexual interest, a genuine practice will eventually leads to the liberation and will free you from personal importance. Reading also helps. But it is the vipassana practice that is really working it’s way through.

Spiritually I am going through the process. The block of voice and emotions, Purification, readjusting the beliefs, the attitude, this is adjusting the worldly life,

I think eventually I will have the control over the mind. As I am getting more firm in my practice.

At the very least remove the negative scene, egotistical behavior, self-seeking recognition. Making it hard for other people, creating silos.

One is the common goal, collectively solving this problem, one is how much people care and acting as an optimal team.

Second is forging good relationship and social life, if it is aligned in such way.

Another approach take the real data and play with that. build upon that.