What I am looking for - - the self layer with growth mind.

• the ease of conversation [ similar frequency ]
• sharing, giving, loving attitude.
• self respect, independent thinker, stand and think for herself.
• alive, wants to travel, explore, live, read.
• physical attraction, knows to be in feminine.
• mature, basic understanding of reality.

what I am not looking for - ego layer with desire for attention/ living for others desire.

• ego| high self importance| creating hoops| testing| qualifying.
• completely submissive, product of others desire.
• strong emotional dependence and need for attention.
• only willing to engage in sure things.
• drugs, ciggerats. Alcohol, bitch shield, crazy ideas about herself.
• only feminine attraction.

Certain doubts can only be answered with experience but as far as my understanding and skill goes, yes I am ready. I am fairly good in communication at this point, have a decent idea of what I am looking for, at one point my heart is also settled on atleast required maturity.

I am not looking for sex, nor I am looking for passing my time, there is basic requirement for possiblity of a good relationship has to be met to intiate or continue the process.

The pyscial attraction or strong presence of feminine is not the required criteria. So even if you are not feeling very strong attraction in the beginning, still keep going on. Desired by someone is not strong creteria either.

I am not expert in dating game or being physical with others, so expect some resistance from mind, still keep going on even if you are uncomfortable. Keep your learning attitude in mind. Play and display of desire...

The foundation is the dillusion of believing I am the reason of all the achievements, I am the centre and world exist to satisfy me.

Cheapness - Bringing others down - The daynamics of dominating other person. Because It feels not so good to be less powerful. Like me telling akhil, how he is doing wrong with working in startup. Raveendra telling me how it is ok because I atleast tried. Critising and making fun of other are also the same category of actions. Instead it should be praising other for their good actions and learn from their good sides.

Beggging - Sympathy seeking - Look how much I endured or how I was served the low hand, grounded in the pricinple of emotional receprocity, is practically emotional begging for attention and social proof. It is the kind of justification for not the world class behaviour that one wants other to believe . It is the mental dialogue when I was...

Finance -

• Think and grow rich
• List of people who have same dharma and accumulated riches.
• List of autobiography of business people.

Soical -

• The ego layer
• The four pillar on different layers.
• The relationship with mom.
• The relationship with Prekannya.

*Health - *

• Ayurveda and yoga.

Spirtuality -

• Types of happiness.

In last 8 week I learnt so much here. What I found most appealing about toastmasters that it is not teaching us some tricks and techniques. But It was bringing our awareness to different aspect of communication. And giving us precise and detailed information of each of them. And among all of them my personal favourate was PRE.

Ladies and gentlemen, toastmasters, I also found PREP and organising your speech has the same underlying principle point supported by reason and example. And sound so simple, but if you notice in this speech or any other communication this is all that we do, we are either making a point, giving some reasons or giving some examples. But when we are not aware, we tend to disbalanbce these elements. In the past I have so many conversation where I could clearly feel something is wrong but I cant put my finger on it. Elvera, it was clear to me what went wrong. I was...

I am not sure wether I should stay in bangalore or go to Delhi and move a little, I took a decision to stay yesterday but than something inside is not in agreement with that decision.

To make a decision especially when the state of mind is tired or unsure and decision is close you need clear parameter. And a clear sense of problem or priority you are facing. Mixing all this and moving to new place will not make you actionable.

Moving because of state of cluttered mind is not the good decision. Learning to understand and deal with that clutteredness will make you free. Its an opportunity. How could you get clarity in new place. Yes it can take your attention away from the state until it resolve by itself but do you want to do that. Learn to solve it by staying in that and see the movement of state.

The purpose of four domain is to grow in the calibrated fashion. What’s more important...

Feels like I over burned myself here a little. Took slow down for couple of days and than back but I am feeling slight headache and repulsion. Feels like I need some break.

Spirituality -

• drew and analyse the last 24 weeks of progress in different domain.

Finance -

• Think and grow rich.

Social -

• At the end of the week I worked on the speech for PRE.

Almost 5-6 months back I was in bir, I was directionless, there was lack of synergy in priority and in actions. I was meditating morning and evening. Long walks. Less productivity, I was working hard but that effort was towards reaching that point than I will start. It Was a destination oriented effort and it was not tight. It was hard to counter act the impulse in me.

Clear direction - Grow I listened to that voice which was crisp. Just grow. Gradually, step by step just grow. Not some librating insight or technique. Or destination, or point but lifelong process of growth. Neither I was zero nor perfect when I started and I am not either of them right now. But there is a progress in between. No sprint, no marathon but a good walk of life. This is the fastest and wholesome way. Maybe in some low energy or agitated time I might inclined to believe, the promise of quick path and path of...

Relax a little. Slow down a little. get some prespective. You don’t have to chase with crutching teeth. Work at your 70% capacity.

Spirituality -

• get the prespective, look what you did in last 24 weeks. Clear out the direction. Spent this week, morning session to get the overall prespective. Refine the current practices…

Finance -

• Think and grow rich.

Health -

• Core of yoga sutra.

Health -

• Researched about yoga book and goals. Draw yoga learning map.
• Built a morning routine APM.
• Read yoga for your body type.
• Read power pranayama.
• Understanding doshas. And my configuration.
• bundling clarity map for different domain.

Social -

• Toastmaster speech - price of a praise.
• Aalysis on relationship with mom.
• some analysis of communications.
• social event

spiritual -

• Meditations on Bhagwat Gita.