• There is an emotional reaction to the voice.
• It wants to protect some ideas so justifying and reframing the scene.
• There is sensation of fear of anything that goes wrong.
• I will do this in future to avoid this.
• This is one thought at a time process.
• The process is that it says something and support it by something you believed

A truth.

• At one point there can be only one thought in our mind. There can be multiple series of the thoughts but at a point there is only one thought.

• I know it by seeing it, and it can be varified always.

• I can only live in the present moment, that is a truth, my thought could be in the past or the future but my experience will always be in the present moment.

• The raw data is the voice in my head said something and my body experience the sensation on the chest and both passed out. that is the truth again. just the experience. The truth is that thought...

One of the truly challenging thing at this point is taking actions, most of my actions seems defensive and originated from desire to not appear bad etc. Action, reactions are happening.

There is a structure of the mind and there is a clear action reaction happening. First get clear on the basics of the mind. and see how can you play with that.

Know the truth of the mind first.

There is a breath, it is short, long, etc. I have it others have it. This is the truth, with direct experience. There is a voice which speaks inside. There is sensations in the body and especially in the heart area.

Let’s first know the truth about myself, my body, mind, awareness, all this area.

The voice and the sensation are the cause of all the actions. This you need to understand throughly by examining your self.

The foundation of the voice is the belief, The foundation of belief is other people opnions and quick assumption.

You can verify the truth like a science.

If I call the personality of the mind as I, there are many I.

First of all, verify the truth and build the structure of belief based on that. Just know one thing that is truth,

What I am up against is this voice and these sensation. there is a reaction when the voice says something.

there are multiple voices, and the nature of the voice keep changing.

there is awareness and the voice, that is the most reliable agency I have to direct the actions.

taking actions based on what voice is saying is not a good idea even though voice is justiying it’s cause as everything is coming out of the belief etc.

There are so many things voice says which has no weightage for me, I know it is sense less and will change very soon.

So this week I can go deep in devops dockers, chef, puppet, ensible, kubernets, aws training.

On the other side, I will ask them to build a microservice, frontend of book and authors, and if have more time one command line application. Emphasis on OOP, classes and object.

So this week there is a lot to learn, I have six courses lined up.

• chef.
• puppet
• kubernet
• ensible
• docker
• aws.

On the second run, I don’t need to worry about abhishek, visnhu, jayachandra, anshul, jayant. Give them as little time as possible. Infect use their skill to know how to do it right.

now I have pushpendra, rajiv, Give them directions.

Anuj, Vikas, Udit. Keep them accountable.

Sudhir, Keep him extremely accountable.

Actually I know very well, observing, understanding and going beyond the mind. knowing the nature of the beyond as well. and the second thing is financially supporting myself to continue the pursuit as long as it takes.

The primary goal is this.

So I am going to the journey of the mind. The only really important thing is to experintially know the mind. And to support that you need to earn 6 lakh/year.

Based on that knowing of the mind, you can really be clear and firm instead of confused like now.

It maybe that mind will most likely continue to act in the same way. I think If I can get little bit more deep, I can make lasting choices. Unshakable clarity can be won after the clear understanding of the mind. This part needs to be resolved not with force but patient practice.

The clear and true understanding of this field is what is really need at this point. Continue doing this with patient and intensity.

Put everything on the table. the only thing other than this required is, Financial support and freedom in a way that I am putting myself in the same situation as I did this time.

The best way to do it is to master the programming, Do one or two project per year or training, and become really good. Using your skill of programming you can do this. Upgrading your skill can be another task,

The whole day your job is to observe the mind and act without premeditation. I will work with visvhjeet and mayank to make sure they are in the position to be deployed. I will make also make sure the kids in my batch are also in the position to learn the most. And I will see what to do to make sure I am the best developer when it comes to full stack development. and then invest next 8 weeks in only those skills.