When the this rule is broken, there is breach in trust. The incident with dada is perfect example. I also order more than I need so I can be fair. Of course this idea of fair is founded on beliefs and means different for different people. It is attached with self judgment as well. And it is very hard to avoid this self judgement for the subconscious child.

There is this childish and powerful subcoicious mind, driven by strong attachments and desires and selfis centeredness in most of the cases. It believes whatever it believes and think it true. Founded in wrong understanding.

It won’t listen anything, extremely sensitive, and judge mental and close. It takes everything very very personally.

It is very powerful in the sense it is emotional driven, and those desire feels so right. Even if something makes sense logically, it hardly stand a chance in front of desire oriented emotional subconscious. It just doesn’t feel right.

It is the same mind that makes repair attempts when it realize it has crossed the line.

when you are in conversation some time you are talking to sensible logical person, most of the time you are talking to this crazy, illogical animal hell bound to create problem for it self.

It feels as if it can do god knows...

In The morning when I came, I noticed prachi was making faces. I did ask her is it so hard being mom, and all this,

In a way I should have said, “did I said something which hurt you”.

In a way, her emotional child or subconscious was in self centered mode, she was thinking about her comfort and issue.

That or something softened her, she was repairing. By offering the blankets and all. And was fairly

This is actually good technique that you you actually bring it on the table, whatever one subconious is thinking.

The communication is natural when there is openness and synergy. For example with J. Or Lin.

Then there is no real rapport, but a kind of Bussiness relationship must be marinated. With so many people being friendly means invitation for being used.

But then the communication happens in the realm of self-centeredness especially bussiness. It can happen from both side.

Not doing anything, not giving any feedback or just being nice while other person is trying to dominate is pretty much giving them invitation.

These are circular events. You need to have clear understanding of each and know the best strategy to handle that.

Disrespecting waiter at Satyam, dada asking for extra money. Smiling at someone and not getting any answer. Sometime there is no connection and you have to be around. Prachi being at unease while I am here.

How do I conduct the research around, how to bring the value in someone’s life.

The first thing is to do the research on what people want.

What people are looking for, I can know this by searching YouTube videos what are in the demand. What are the best seller on amazon. What are the best selling apps. What are the best selling products.

Then you can research which companies are most profitable. Which people are leading and see why. What exactly they are providing. See who is doing good.

First of all these two research must be done.

You can also read marketing mangement how to conduct research. You can start with information world.

When I sleep well, I feel fully recharged, refreshed and awakened. When I didn’t sleep well, I feel drowsy, my focus is not sound and comprihansion is quiet low. That recharge is very important.

Sometime I sleep well, sometime i don’t. I woke up many times during night and all. Especially when I am stressed out or anxious or if there is a lot of sound. Sometime I wake up to pee and all.

Then there is morning, I must start a morning routine. That time has to be denoted with extreme clarity. In times, I seems to over lay down and it is not about relaxation.

So if I get good relaxation and feel refreshed all day that means I had a good night sleep.

To relax into the bed, I can use yoga nidra. If I can master that circulation I can master relaxation and sleep on wish.

The second thing is I need slience. I can put earplugs. Or stay in a place where there is not much noise or find out how...

No matter what kind of thoughts, feelings and experience I am going through I am sustimatically moving forwards with the aid of four domains, sometime I overpush and feel burn out. Sometime I do less than what I suppose to do and caught into the self judgements.

Thoughts are the cause here, certain kinds of thoughts leads to certain kind of feeling, I can change the cretiera of that judgement and practice it to make it learning than success failure. That changes the inspiration and all. Or I can observe but I can not let it run the negative course.

Then there are circular states or maybe the effect of vipassana that underlying tendencies are coming up. Or maybe they are kind of the interplay of gunas. they turn into the desire.

You need a mechanism to be assecively focused on the direction you have chosen, and a opposite thought and a way to relive any wrong mental thoughts.

You have...

Day before he gave me a nonverbal look. Yesterday this guy told me, about filling the bottle. I did sense a bit of disrespect, then he grew and took away the jug. Today he didn’t even listen. You see if you don’t put the boundaries it grows.

I wasn’t that angry but a part of me knew if I will not react it will be growing inside. I went and confront. Now the situation was such that, I confronted him in front of few people. He wasn’t listening and pretending to give the look. Now the other guy listen and try to de-escalate.

My voice was not very much in control, and there seems the lack of strength. It could also be diplomatic and indirect. I was also feeling or coming out of the phase of doubt.

This is the skill I need to learn and master and I am moving towards getting better in it.

Confronting was actually good for you, as you cultivated the skill. It was good for him too. Although...

sleep - explore and experimentation with this.

yoga - set the morning routine of 30min and extend up to 50min. Improve your understanding.

food - learn about protiene, b-12 supplement, omega-3. Cut down on chai, move towards Satvik food

bring value in others life - research on what needs I can solve and hot can I bring value in others life, what can I get paid, how can I get paid. Aligned with the skill and inforamation I have.

create the product, market and sell - creating the product and market and sell. Keeping the scale in mind. And long term brand.