Think for yourself to decide

• what you want
• what is true
• what you should do to achieve. And do with humility and open-mindedness so that you consider the best thinking available to you.

LIFE PRINCIPLE CORE

• understand cause and effect by seeing pattern in those things that affect you. And learn pricinple for dealing with them effectively.

LIFE PRINCIPLES
1. Embrace reality and deal with it -

• .1.be a hyper-realist
  • dream + reality + determination = successful life.
• .2.truth, or an accurate understanding of realtiy is essential foundation of any good outcome
• .3.be radically open-minded and radically transparent.
  • radical openness and transparency is invaluable for rapid learning.
  • don’t let the fear of what other will think of you stand in your way.
  • embracing radical truth and transparency will bring more meaningful realtionship and work.
• .4.look to nature to see how...

As I am staying with lin, there is a challange of routine disturbance. And there is a part of me, the part I am getting really familiar with now, it is telling me that I will take a break, reunderstand everything and then redo it. I know it very well what it is, the pony trap of mind and i know how it will change when I will be in a peaceful area.

See the challange, understand it and solve it. This is how it works, not complete recalibrate. Make it a habit, if something is off, stop, take break, diagnose and resolve here and now, one at a time. There is no off recreation and recalibration, you have to know and solve here and now.

Monkey,

I can’t tell you how much I enjoy my time with you. Your simplicity, caring and giving attitude, surprises, holding my arm, intimacy, late mornings, your english, dinners… You putting your heart whether it is cooking or kissing make everything so much more warm and I love that.

I loved mornings where we spent so much time together, your head resting on my shoulder and beautiful smile on your face. I loved your cooking lunches, careful listening and feedback you give me all the time :)

You never asked for anything but always keep giving which ofcourse feels good but sometime it makes me think that you keep perosnal problems to your self. And even if you don’t like anything that I am doing you wouldn’t tell me.

You asked me before why I stopped communicating with you. And I gave an answer which I don’t feel fully justify and you also ask me several time about the relationship...

work -

• pricinple.
• shoe dog.

relationship -

• spending time with lin and understanding it.
• the farewell.

spirituality -

• next step | moving to delhi.

health -

• yoga sequence.

work -

• motizing innovation [with notes]
• principles

health -

• hatha pradipika.
• key asana.
• health recovery and rest.

relationship -

• realtion with lin.
• the element of relationship
• attraction
• intimacy
• caring and respect.
• infinite games of mind.
• before she goes
• farewell letter.

spirituality -

• what now!
• the next concrete steps.

What do I want in terms of relationship moving forward! At what note the fairwell should be ended. What is my stand in this matter. Just acting out of the mind isn’t the best strategy.

Emotionally I feel good around her. As she doesn’t ask much and intentionally try to come in between of my work. so it doesn’t become intrusive. Her demands if any are sweet and small.

Her inclination towards health, relationship and spirituality are aligned with mine the sail is somewhat smooth.

She is simple, welcoming and caring. And likes to do things to make other people happy ofcourse including me.

On the contrast. There is Kavita, Mumbai girls, Swati, Ritika, Preksha, Esabell, J, Polish girl, white night…..

And then there is a constant tease of being the single.

The only reason of not continuing this relationship is being open to the further possiblity and experience or being Hooked with...

letter - I wanna write a letter clearly stated what this means to me, how it made my life colorful and what’s ahead. Well thought out letter.

gift - I wanna give her a gift, probably the book lamp or a flower.

movie - we can watch a romantic movie together at home or theatre/

trip to kodiakanal - we can go for outdoor trip to Coorg or Kodaikanal.

Lust, and the fetish, there is no end of it. The more you engage the more it will increase. And what seems to excite me in the realm of mind isn’t really excite me in real life. It is like an empty package.

Any place where mind start to see the object of its attachment, it looses it’s equanimity and the same situation becomes hard, the very nature of that desire makes it hard situation.

The mind will even tolerate abuse if it sees the object of it’s attachment, it will suggest the licking boot behaviour if it see the possiblity of gratification of it’s perceived pleasure.

if something is easily available it start to devalue it, if something is inconsistent it start to desrespect it. It likes novelty.

Left on it’s on devices it end up eating too much, kissing too much, stoping too early.. and that’s just not the good. And if it is being disciplined it appreciate afterword. There has...

When I reach office I see her message that she misses me. She buy poha, apple and bottle to show her non-verbal affection. She kisses and hugs and do things to show that my pleasure matters to her. She might sometime go overboard. She has written letters. She is willing to stretch and really try hard to put no pressure on me.

I wanna put no pressure on her as well, I am willing to do most of the thing she ask, taking her out on dinner all the time. Planning the nights. Starting the major moves, hugging and kissing her all the time. Making her laugh [naturally]. Bringing gift. Tomorrow her course is ending so there will be a dinner at the very least.

As I spent last couple of weeks with lin, somewhat unplanned, in one way i enjoyed it at another level it affected many aspect of my regular life. As everything doing first time. There is ton to be learn.

What I enjoy the most is this companionship. Having someone to hold close and kiss feels very good. Talking and praising each other. Cooking breakfast. It effectivly kill that senes of loneliness I sometime experince. Seeing her smile at you, calling You name, making her smile. Late mornings. She bringing food for me. Her simple nature. It also freed from the desire to constantly trying to build the relationship with other people.

Sex and intimacy was kind of challanage as I was learning it myself. Second in one way I personally i don’t watch porn and moved away from it on weekly basis. As I also value bramhcharya. Then I didn’t like my mind to wonder in the realm of wierd fetishes...