The way I am washing the clothes seems to work fine for the underwear and thshits but for jeans and towels seems dirty. Some of the clothes I am wearing are worn out.

What I want is clean presentable clothes. If I am participating in social arrangments, I can upgrade based on it.

I can buy a jeans, jacket and a towel [optional]. Make sure your clothes are very well clean and not torn out or something like that.

So what is my goal from it.

• A regular pratice for excellent physical health and vitality.
• A self practice without anyone’s help
• Gradual growth towards more spiritual aspects of the practice.

Learning:

• Real learning happenes with self attempts of trying and failing.
• It has to be gradual, and long term. Start with less and build upon it. One step at a time.

Theory:

• start with hatha pradipika. Once you have learnt it. Then move to next level of book. Focus on next calibrated step.

Practice:

• sequence.
• master each asana.
• engage the finer aspect of asana. awareness, Bandhas…

Resources:

• Lin is excellent person that can help. So is J. They can help you to see what they have learnt in their teacher training. And build the routine.
• You can take personal class from charan, yt…
• Ofcoures book also help.

The next calibrated step:

• Focus only on hatha.
• Read hatha pradipika.
• Build...

Aim - I want to be able to do yoga by myself, independently and creatively.

Master each pose - learn the pose indvisually, their benifit, master them one by one. First you are doing it in a way properly and then you are adding awareness, anatomy and depth. And feeling your way to asana.

Sequence - learn the fundamental sequencing and how sequencing work, and then Create your own sequence.

Master Hatha - First completely focus on hatha, next year maybe astanga. But for this year just focus on hatha.

Read the text - Hatha pradipika and Patanjali yoga sutra.

Attend the teacher training - maybe later this year, I will do a1000yoga teacher training.

So far I have read few books on yoga and Ayurveda. Took course on anatomy. Read anatomy yoga book. Yoga sequencing and body type. APM at the moment. Read pranayama book.

I took classes at a1000yoga for around 6 months regularly, 4 courses at HI yoga, 1 month amrutha Bindu. Some classes in Rishikesh with Dinesh, maa yoga.

I also took some classes from yogaGlo, p90x, doYogaWithMe.

Couple of workshop with pradeep and iyengar yoga.

Taking the weekend classes with MindFit at the moment.

All in all I practiced yoga for almost an Year now.

How could I calibrate my learning?

Akhil, Pratap, Ashish, Anurag, Prafull, Dhapola, Sohail. I once travelled with these people, but there seems to be a futile attempt of communication with them lately.

I talked to akhil and it is all about intellectual masterbation, some old time memory. Ashish is in its zone all together. Pratap I really have to try hard to just be on the phone. So is with sohail. Avinash. There is connection with raveendra sometime.

I met Hrishi, Avinash. Then J and Lin…

The same pattern sharing, acceptance, conflict. And then it moves away.

Before I used to use this to fill my mind based on the suggestion of the voice, the voice is fading and it is becoming useless and meaningless. A far more filling task can be service.

So what exactly I suppose to do with these relationships with?

It is bi-directional, Anurag, pratap, hrishi… these people haven’t called me in years. So there is actually...

I like being with her, she like being with me. And it is becoming too much. It is tilting towards too much.

You wake up 6:15. Do meditation. Have breakfast and go to office. Leave around 5 do your mediation. Have dinner. Come to her place.

Around 7:30. Take a bath. Spend time with her. Learn yoga. Read something. Or talk to her. Be with her.

Sleep around 10.

Weekend. Wake up late, fool around. Do one thing, watch a movie, to go a show, shopping, dinner. Bring her flower.

Do your yoga class in the evening.

After couple of weeks move in.

work -

• the platform revolution
• the money monitaztion
• research

health -

• draw APM.
• Hatha pradapika.
• consolidate your understanding of asana.
• build a self practice.

social -

• balanced relation with Lin.

spirituality -

• regular Vipassana.
• the next logical direction.

Social -

• meditated on end to end relationship.
• the component and spectrum of dependent relation
• win-win1 - the screamer group.
• win-win2 - the mid way.
• win-win3 - insecure.
• the way of dependent relationship.
• then whats the point.
• the good parts.
• the strategy.
• the hinderence to the freedom.
• on romantic relationship.
• the community effect.
• the relationship with lin.
• the romantic relationship.
• the desire of relationship.
• the relationship with lin.
• rejection with Kavita.
• the final note on dependence
• getting back with Lin.
• a real relationship.
• lin.
• about the marraige.
• the element of real relationship.
• FAQ with lin.
• the balance

work -

• E-myth.
• Henry ford.

Spiritual -

• moment to moment awareness.
• the lies.

**Health -

• food audit.
• reintroducing fruits.
• APM
• 3 yoga class

Other -

• shoes.
• haircut

Leatley I found it easy to just lie, I was with lin and then mom called me and asked what I was doing and I told her meditaion while I was really with lin. I didn’t really lie anything to lin, but wan’t telling the truth either.

It seems convienent. Not just convenient but telling absolute truth will put you in the unnecessary trouble. The same concept goes with dealing with controlling people, speaking truth is only inviting barrage of unnecessary question and justification without any fruitful result.

There is another thing I can do is misdirect the question, but at the heart it is the same.

Another thing could be to deny the answer at ground of you won’t understand that will surely be taken personally and somewhat not very socially acceptable.

Another thing is you can stop the relationship all together which is the possibility but not practical in family and close relationship.

...

Spirituality -

• meditating 2wice a day 2hr/day morning 6:30-7:30. Evening 6-7. This should not be hindered.

Work - you can go to office early 7:30-8:00 and work hard till 5 and then come back.

Health - weekend 3 class of yoga each 10-11, 5-6/7. One on Wednesday. 6-7

Relationship -spent most of the evenings with Lin. Finsin your work come back home and then do mediations and then go to her house spent couple of hours with her. Or do yoga together. Something.