Departure -

The ordinary life - living in the bound of society and doing the mundane task. I am working in the equal experts. Doing regular projects. Living regular life.

Call to action - hero is either pushed or willing to take on the adventure. Increasing dissatisfaction with the work, hitting a point where I know there is nothing more. Only repetitions. This innate sense that this is end.

Refusal to call - I didn’t refuse too much. Although I took 3 months window to sort of relase. There was uncertainty but not a strong doubt.

Supernatural aid- supernatural agency provide you emulation and aids to fight the dragon and demons of the unknown world. Tushita gave me basic spiritual understanding to move forward.

Crossing the first threshold - I took 3 months subatical. But eventually I slipped into the adventure completly, not knowing what is ahead. Seems to be ready with the...

The first thing you must do is to craft the life and create the stream, ofcourse you need to foucs more on work. But make sure you stablize this system first.

Slowly lean towards the other aspects, serving people, self realization, serving life.

Once you have realized your own ideal life of happiness. Or setup the system that will create a satisfying worldly life for you. Once this is done. You know your heart is not at peace.

It is the time to slide into the higher aspect.

selfLess service - engaging in the process of serving others without any self centeredness, just for their growth. Their well being.

Who Am I - deeper meditation and self realization. Knowing and stablizing the realm of self. Completely satisfied. The ultimate freedom.

Serving the life - you listen to the life events, you feel it and let it guide you, you surrendor and serve to it.

So imagine for a minute that you did it.

You have a deep understanding of yourself, and calm and unbothered mind. You have througy understanding of reality and deep acceptance. You understand the process of life and relaxed in it.

You have some friends in your life around whom you feel deeply comfortable and aligned. You can open your heart and ask what you need and speak your mind, knowing instead of being judged you will be listened.

You have a partner with whom you can share deep intimatcy. There is mutual giving and it is so prominante that none of you ever need to ask. There are mornings when you just wake up and pour the love inside you to her. This deep acceptance.

You have community of people where you engage, you know the flow of life will create, destroy and renew the relationships based on your maturity. And you are ok with it.

You know when to say no and lovingly but...

Whether it is with lin, nam, Hawaii, mom, akhil.. every relationship will have good moments. Self importance moments, and everything in between. The more aligned and mature easier it is.

If you are open every relationship will help you to be better. challange you, make you happy, make you sad, free you..

In a way, you know all the permutation and combination that relationship offers. Attraction, love, courtships, giving, taking, resonance, control, friendship, same dream, different dream, desperation, intimacy, overwhelming, repsonsiblity, sharing, demands.

Now the question is if the relationship is right, do you want to go all in, and see where it takes you, or you want more experience and have light dips.

You know don’t try hard but open to everything. More experince and more data will lead you to deeper understanding. Ofcourse it doesn’t mean start dating someone from whom you are getting clear negative vibes.

But if right person comes into the play. Go deeper.

Given the best case scenario, what would be an ideal social life.

You are utterly satisfied and your heart is radiating with love for everyone. And then you are pouring your love on others and recieving their love.

You are not obligated and controlled by anyone. There is no discomfort of any kind around anyone. You are completely comfortable around everyone and don’t take anything personally. You love everyone and express yourself completely, if they take it personally, you don’t mind. There is nothing personal to take for you.

You have a girlfriend you are completely in love with. You like her, she likes you, but then both of you are in sync of each other’s need. There is an understanding and support. And desire to make other happy. And understanding of each other’s seperate life. We are satsifying each other by giving and none of is is actually taking and demanding. Or get to the...

The fan guy at BAL is perfect example. When you get into a zone of familiarity with a person, now it becomes an obligation of some sort to smile at them, and they become comfortable about asking favour.

Now they want to use you as an instrument to fulfill their desire. It is kind of awakward when someone you don’t feel comfortable becomes comfartable. And then there are these conflicts of understanding.

You can be nice to all people but be careful about who you should be getting closer to. Keep your expression neat and clear. If you can do that and let other people take personally and leave you. You have won the biggest battle inside.

If can certainly help people. Nothing wrong their, but you don’t need to play all the games being offered.

What if I setup the routine. And then don’t take any wilful action, but being alert of what life is asking me to do. And that lead the way. Ofcourse making myself better but at the same time, not forcing and leading, but relaxing, being lead and serving.

Just being on alert, what life is asking me to do and then learning to engage with that. When you are uncomfortable, relax and observe.

You did it perfectly with odesk, EE, namshi, Lin. Could you possibly create these opportunities.

This is my spiritual practice for this week.

I would do the same actions, and well come the life’s move with whole heart. I will sit on the same place. Smile. And engage with whoever the person infront of me is. I would work and relax. But allow myself to see the opportunities. Same with the yoga. Zumba.

Be more aware of what life is throwing around. And have a faith. It knows what it is doing.

Let’s take a step back and get yourself some prespective.

2014, 3 years back, completely lost, making another project hopelessly moving in the direction of nowhere. No understanding of what is important. Working hard to keeping myself in the shape.Watching wierd internet things. Facebook. Looking for a new tv show to keep myself engaged. Looking for happiness in parties….

2017, meditated sincerely from last 3 years. 5 vipassana retreat. 2 tushita. Read bhagwat gita | gita, Tao the ching, 4 agreements, unthread soul, satiphatan, thinking fast and slow, how to live good life, autobiographies, organically stopped watching tv, porn, streamlined Facebook, masturbation, and slowly letting the thoughts go. buying tools. Serving in ahshayien, affermations, and analytical meditations. Run so many different experiments. Intentionally living every minute calibrated learning from 70 weeks...