For next few months atleast I will be in a relationship. Better or worse I will be leading it! So how do I want this to play out! And what I don’t want! And how to set the tone!

Start with once in a two days, gradually getting more closer. Having dinner together, watching movies, or other explorations. Going to yoga classes. Stay away atleast 2-3 days.

Now help each other in their main pursuits. For me it is the videos and for her, collage and job.

Do light intimacy, foreplay as it comes, learn the art of it. And keep the main act 2wice a week. This is the area where you can learn more.

Know her more deeply, show yourself more honestly, admit your mistakes, clear the blockages, clean yourself.

Stay together. See how that feels.

Go for 2-3 days to a week to Coorg.

What it takes and give to have a girlfriends. And make no mistake this is exploration of having a girlfriend.

Relationship -

• what relationship and intemacy is all about and practical impmentation.
• learn the nuances of sex and intemacy.
• learn the nuances of realtionship.
• set the tone with Lin.

Work -

• learn premier pro and edit.
• reshoot if necessary | add remote.
• add text | music | subscription.
• seo the page | write small blog | share
• youtube ad.

Spirituality -

• wake up at 6:00
• sydney poiter.

Relationships -

• what’s next with Lin |
• dinners with Lin| intemacy.
• torment of cardinal desires | place for cardinal desires.
• education on intemacy by youtube| videos.
• kamasutra.
• hanging out with J | cancelling movie with Preksha.

Work -

• script on how to stay focused.
• audio delivery
• recording video.
• editing in premier pro. [ starting ]
• course - video production
• course - shooting with DSLR
• course - premier pro [ starting ]

Sprituality -

• structured followed.
• Sydney poiter | Anjan chah.

It is the part I need to explore the most, to go beyond it, to master it. This is the part that dilludes me. Because of lack of understanding. This is the part where I am unable to put the right price, because of lack of experience. This is the part makes me undervalue myself sometime. When everyone is preaching it. This is the part I am running circle around. And this is the part which right on my face all the time. This is the part which is essential, this is the part society put highest premium, this is the part making many many people suffering. This is the part that needs a good education. Because this is the part everyone is interested in.

This is where lies the highest growth.

Learn it, explore it, experience it. And this brings full circle to your understanding of relationship. Experience it with furocity with 360 degree. Form all the angles, even if it create a bit...

On Monday I dated Lin, she is cute, we were in sync, and then I kissed her. And then since then I am having quite intense sexual pull inside. I am sort of defaulting to it.

There is this intensity of pull, and it feels pleasurable but then there is no strong desire to stay centered. And follow your practice.

Morning I am thinking for hours, night I am sleeping while thinking about it. All from bhogta Bhav. It’s like I am holding on to it tightly.

This is very natural, this pull. Especially as I don’t mastrubate much.

What it is doing it to me?

There is no fun in this thinking, only distortion, and maybe be it will even destroy the real fun.

It feels like tight fist sort of sensations. Uncomfortable. This doesn’t really feel good. Then becasue of constant engagement, this is taking president in my mind. From my work.

And then I am also feeeding it by watching different videos...

She likes me and I like her, and she is a nice person with less complicated life.

A relationship is all about filling each other’s emotional needs. How you do it by spending time together and in that time, you are real.

You give and receive love| approval| affection| approval, this is the most powerful thing. That effectively filles the emotional tank and kills the need of being lonely.

Than you play, hold her, kiss her and be more intimate. That’s the second high value mutual deposit.

Than you know deeply other person, do 36 questions, ask deeper question, know deeply. Valunearbly.

Help each other to grow. Make her the part of your life. Be the part of her dream.

And to do that you do the dinner tighter, lunch together, watch movies. Explore. Go on dates. Stay, and help each other.

It is not really that complicated.

And keep yourself on the self layer. It is about really...

core -

• waking up at 6:00.
• first gatka office. Second gatka cafe. And then yoga.

work

• content for how to stay focused.
• practice audio delivery.

• work the frame and shot it.

• learn premier pro.

• do the framework + add text + add music.

• add trailer + add subscription.

• small blogpost.

• post and share.

• youtube ad.

  • watch relevant videos in shooting videos with DSLR | talking head | video production.

relationship -

• educate and understand clearly the next step in relationship.
• move relationship with Lin on next level.
• hang out with preksha and J.
• introduce yourself with more people in yoga place.

Core -

• tightening the grip on vipassana.
• listen to Anjan chah.
• fragmented waking up.

Work -

• Shot and Posted the video [ how to give direction to your life ]
• Keywords and SEO.
• LinkedIn setup.
• Hair cut education and Bounce.
• How to be focused speech draft and implementation.
• The youtube domination | suggested video | ad course.
• Comparing video with others and extracting suggestions of improvment.

Relationships -

• Lunch with Lin | going out with her.
• Learning from setting up dates with preksha.
• Setting up with J.
• Learning intimacy from movie scenes.

Other -

• Book FD.
• Buy card and remote.

How to keep yourself focused on what is important, when there are so many distractions pulling us in all the direction? Lets see.

Once I attend this meditation camp, and out teacher lead us to a 24 minutes meditaion, the instructions were so simple and repetitive that there is no way you misinterpreted that. He said focus on top of your nose and observe your breath for next 24 minutes. You don’t have to do anything else but just make strong determination to do it. Very simple. But I found I couldn’t focus on it for even 10 second. And later i found out I was in top layer.

So the point here is it is normal, by default our minds are scattered. So if you can’t keep your mind in one direction it is expected. Just so we know what kind of material we are working with.

So How can I focus this mind in to one object.

Before we can focus we need to know where to focus, and before we can...

To stay focused, first we need to have a clear goal. What we want to focus on. The more precise you can be, the more clear and precise you can be with this the more strength you will experience.

There has to be a desire, there is need to be emotional context to this, you really want to want that. The more you learn or explore about something more clear you can get. The more data more fascinated you get.

It is less about being focused more about being able to leave unimportant stuff.

Every inspirational video is the same. A person wants something and he is trying, and facing obstacles but not giving up.

Visiaulaizations are important.

There are times when you want to just let go do not hold.

Meditations can help to just increase focus.