What the main charcter is looking for is good image in other characters.
The approval and acceptance. And that makes it explaining things to other people.

This makes it hard to express in the real life. Because in mind nobody reject. And in real world nobody listen.

When we are in the state where we don’re really know which way is up. And mind become dispersed. Now you don’t know what to do. In that state all kind of temptation hits. Should I check Facebook? Should I check youtube? He did it becausae of that? All kind of temptation and suggestion creeps in. Some time there is so much lethargy that you just want to sleep. It is like a part of us in afraid.

The nature of temptation is it comes and passes away. If you don’t act the intensity increases but then temptation goes away. Interesting thing is you don’t feel the temptation for the whole time. But in so maybe in the period of 10 min. You are dealing with 30sec of temptation.

The nature of temptation is such that if you act, there is a relase. But the temptation does not end here it increases. And now there is a low self esteem.

We act because it is easy.

Now the state of pysiology can also...

When you know the direction and you are interested in that direction then it is the best way to get out of this state. But when the chase is over you are going to come back. Taking yoga class or toastmaster.

The thing is if you don’t have a strong direction, you have no option but to react to the current moment. And the impulses of the moment would be to check your Facebook. YouTube. Funny videos. For second you get realise. Now state of mind is going in on further dump. A part of you even got more down.

What if you chose a direction, you thought about it and you understood it. And you know it is the best thing for you. But your mind is not going to be align so easily.

You won’t be able to do it.

The state of mind is lethargic, it feels kind of waking up in the morning in a way, physiologically. And then there is a voice that is telling me I should start Facebook. Go to sleep. Abusing other people. And now I am feeling fresh. And there is a silence.

The girl in came and there was quick suggestion to grab, almost like checking Facebook.

Now voice said oh I am winning, This is my job, this felt joyful.

Now there is zero lethargy and feel optimised.

Now explaining to others. Now the song is leading me towards i should start dancing.

Now I am focusing in one direction. Self esteem and self judgement.

And then I will sit emotionaless in social situations. Says the voice.

And then the expression without thought, as cat jumped. What will he say if I sit longer.

Unchain my heart, how he is wrong.

IF he looks me using keyboard. And now there is no thought. That paratha will...

When we don’t choose which direction we are travelling. We end up choosing the default. There is no such thing is not choosing. We can not not choose even for single moment.

When we are not choosing anything and just reacting, escaping, the state of mind become even more painful. This is the sign of retreat.

Lethargy and how much control you have over your mind to keep marching while these gulp of energy is moving.

The real desire to get something can cut the fog effectively. Without desire or aspiration it is hard to be motivated for anything. Intellectually knowing what is good for you is not same as desire.

And then these things some time has negative effect. I don’t want to be in a relationship. But don’t want not to be in relationship.

The center.

• quotes.
• know what matters.
• self esteem
• the marketing strategy
• decisive element in packaging.

Spiritual.

• look inside your mind.
• integrate the every minute opportunity.
• satipathan sutta.

The soical -

• improve the self esteem and practice complete self expression.
• familiarise yourself in communities, keep blossoming the relationships. And keep exploring and learning.

Health -

• vitamin b12 and vitamin D.

*Contribution - *

• [ shot and post ] what your doubts are telling you.
• posting 7 quote.
• trying youtube boost.
• know what matters.

Health -

• taking the test.
• consulting deficit of vitamins.
• adding proteinX and removing vada.
• suffering a little.

Spirituality -

• Vipassana.
• Satipathan.

Soical -

• Reframe what matters.
• Toastmasters.
• Going out with Lin.
• Setting up salsa with J.
• Setting up volunteer.

There are 2 main scenarios when you hang out in social fields. Groups and single. The groups are more shallow, and single is more personal.

With other person we can have few types of relationships. Stranger. Companion. Romantic. Family. Every step gets more personal.

In a relationship two people brings two different world. There is a desire of acceptance. Sharing these dreams. Dominating. Affection. Expression. Exploration. Serving.

When there is a desire of acceptance, we pretend. When there is desire of domination we are afraid. Both are sign of dependent states. Rooted in insecurities and self esteem. They create poor relationships. If the problem is in self esteem, more social interaction and proving will not help to build it but silent self mastery will. If you take things perosnally, there is no end of remedies.

Sharing creates the bond. Affection and playing creats the ease...

You have to recenter, you have to know what matters. And you have to know with crisp clarity. Reacting on impulses is not taking me anywhere and my mind is screaming for help.

Stop. At this very moment know what matter. With crispness. If you are not sure about direction then change the direction. At this very moment. Change the direction of thoughts.

Spiritually I am growing every single minute. And how you do that. Every single minute I am seeing the truth inside myself. Realising. Making the right decision. No matter how it feels. Every second I am observing, seeing, realising. Understanding, analysing. Every action and reaction I observe. This is my profession as well. If I lack the knowledge to understand then I just sit and see until that state pass away. I form the clear question that needs to be answered and then let intellegence allow it answer.

I always complete the task I...

Center message - instead of running away from doubt, understand it, see what it means and accept or resolve it.

Scene 1. how it feels and why,
When we feel emotion of doubts it almost paralyse us to make any decision. we feel unsure about eveything, the state of mind becomes foggy and painful, Try to suppress it, run away from it or start to delegate our decision or start to procastinate. Just so we somehow get out of this emotion which puts us in so much unease, and maybe sometime we can run away from it tempraroly.

The thing about the emotion of doubt is it’s not a cause but a message. It is not something to get rid of but to understand. Just like pain in our physical body is telling us to address something in physcial body emotion of doubt is giving information about our mind. So now the question become what information it is giving us ?

And if we observe, There is only two cause...