Be yourself. Engage in the communities. Keep the family bond strong. Take risk in romantic relationship. Flourish companion relationship. Serve others. Contemplate communication and integrate the right principle.

The going out with Lin was perfect. Common activilties with J is perfect. The non jugdemental supporting conversations at home is perfect. Make more communications at a1000yoga. Toastmasters. Coffee shop. Lead conversations. Contemplate and integrate communications. Serve once a week.

The context was clear romantic relationship.

After familiarity, there are two elements in romantic relationship. First is resonance. In a conversation, it becomes clear pretty soon wether there is one or not. It is just natural rapport.

With Lin although there was some deep common interest yoga, meditations, and traveling, there was no real give and take. It was forced in prematurely ended. I wasn’t feeling really interested.

The another aspect was maybe because she was not listening intently or with interest. I was not feeling comfortable to share more. There were some silent pauses. And this leads to me talking strange things like i have a different image of Chinese.

There were sexual hooks naughty boy, My roommate is beautiful. And I registered and took advantage of it. But without real rapport. It is kind of unsmooth.

She was sharing stories about her being cheated and all...

I am going out with Lin tonight at onesta. And it is a romantic date. And I am leading. For her this is a very new experience. And she is very much looking forward to it. With sort of high attraction.

This is an amazing opportunity to explore something very essential and important to be explored. Probably the most important thing. And it is essential skill to be build. If you want to craft the life you want.

She is here for few months I believe. And it could be nice casual relationship. Where we hang out once or twice a week. Cuddle. Touch. Play physically. Do some activity like salsa. Go out like coorg. Have fun together. Play the game of mesculiene and famine. nobody wants to be alone in this world.

First thing she has to be comfortable. Especially as it is her first time. Talk about non threatening topics. About her hostel, study. How long she is planning to stay, her childhood...

Yesterday I met her. She seems a sweet person. A yoga student. Chinese. Diet. And willing and open, if I can escalate properly. The Chinglish is going to be slight problem.

The first thing is it is a romantic relationship not a companion like J.

The on the spot first date is kind of done. The more comfort, escalation, seduction, and breaking the barrier should be the direction here. Although just comfort without escalation is not going to work here.

Appropriate and bold escalation must be there. Now how would you do that. Appropriate escalation, sexual hook, romantic topics. and affectionate look. With humour and comfort ofcourse. Context must be romantic relationship. And you must break down the barrier and march. Force appropriately.

This right here is the process of learning. In real life. Offer her humour, seduction.

Take her out to decent place. Know about her life, what she...

*Contribution - *

Health -

• Becoming veg. And adjustment pipeline.
• 1 yoga class per day.

Spirituality -

• Vipassana.
• Satipathan.

Soical -

• Toastmasters.
• Attending salsa class with | without J.
• DJ karaoke.
• Yoga class.

Keep your attention 100% directed towards your work. Struggle, hussel, pivote, do what ever it takes, but keep moving forward. Create something everyday. With the spirit of fighter.

You wake and you do what ever it takes to move forward everyday. An Inch maybe, maybe no inch, but you try, observe yourself, and move further. Until you make 50K per month.

Balance your soical, health, mediations. But give yourself up for this. 100%.

Contribution -

• a one month campaign.
• the self esteem script.
• turn your desire into reality. Title. Keyword. Description.
• financial analysis.
• the goals. And the balance.
• the self esteem map.
• marketing strategy.
• start impmenting.

Social -

• direction, know what matters and social.
• realtionship with J,

Spiritual -

• vipassana both time.
• know what matters.

Health -

• The TTC decision.
  • daily yoga.

A conversation of 4:30 hours. Some pauses, more depth, some realness, running out of topics. Needs more actvity. I was surprise when she disclosed she is not engaged or married but he is her boyfriend only.

At the moment I am feeling a bit unclear. Groundless. I am kind of flowing. Without solid structure, problems are not crystal clear. And there is some degree of self importance.

In this a little hard to differentiate right from wrong. And this is not permanent. The situation and energy will change.

The good thing is I am living in the present moment. Experiencing the experinces.

This is the process, and in the realm of growth, the real one not the one that is the trap, that makes you feel like growing. you have to keep your attention at the same place. fail. build. learn. try again. keep moving.

The most important thing is you keep moving forward everyday. it is like cutting a fog, atleast in the beginning, but this is the real process and sign that you are really growing.

don’t let mind trick you with soultionless trickery. observe it and keep moving.

if you keep your attention at the same place it will cut the fog and move deeper. answers will come. you are creating with the material of reality. co creating with god. allow it to express. relax. don’t retreat. but relax and move forward.

don’t judge based on the results but efforts. there is no other options and do i really need this. keep your focus solution oriented. and keep moving.

• Without good companion relationship it becomes dry, and needy, and then you fallback to people like Anurag. It fills the emotional balance. And keep the life colorful. Even though you have romantic relationship good companions are essential.
• The direction is to playfulness, affection, depth, sharing [ connection | non verbal approval ], caring, exploring, learning, just sitting with understanding that I like you and care for you is enough. Over time it can get more deeper, more safer, more real.
• The boundaries are to not let it spread as a time pass, whatapss, a place of emotional relase, control, taking advantage, ritual, ego gratification.
• A comapnion relationship start with common ground and shift into the foundation of affection.
• The realness is everything, fakeness, impressing will only kill it. Let her contribute shape this common dream.