Doing favours - The ccdtress and dep. these people are attracted to me and they are showing their affection by doing some favours. Indirectly. This gives me feeling of indebtness. The key point here is the indirectness. And how could you say no to in a way generosity of someone else. Saying no to someones indirect advances. Becauase in a way they expect reciprocation, there is an expactation built into this generosity.

One thing I can force them to take responsibility and deny. “Why are you doing it ?” Another I can tell them a deso. “You are adding extra point in my ccd app, making me uncomfartable, just give me what is natural I am happy with that” I can also take the responsiblity and deny without them needing to say it. “I know you are doing it because you like me, but I am more of a customer here.” Just avoiding a behaviour you don’t like is not good for other people and you...

There is somewhat similar outlook towards the life between me and J. There are common sparks, Reading, Vipassana, yoga, meaningful work. She seems mature enough. It is a fertile ground to build a deep friendship oriented comapnion relationship. The context is companion.

Saftey, Deep connection, respect and being real are the heart of companion relationship. Sharing and being understood, and walking the life together with more ease are the expactations. Just sitting and having someone to share, really share the mind is a blessing. If there is no depth, saftey, understanding and real sharing it is useless.

To build such relationship and lead in that way, you need to keep setting the context, playfulness, affection but essentially saftey, sharing and depth. The setting should be quieter place like a coffee shop, keep the volume and frequecy 2-3 hours/week. Starting acting as if you are...

I communicated with almost every one. And there was certain people who were close like feby. Certain people who were self obssesd like weed guy, tcs guy, anshul. Kind of proud of themself. Some people were like me Jeys pradeep, some deeply liked me like Divor girl. And most of the people were welcoming, opened and good to hangout with Bellandur person, mechile, Somya. Deepti. Amit, vineet, yeswant, the french girl. Shekhar.

I saw Saya qualifying for deep attention. Yeswant trying hard to impress him, pradeep having hard time to communicate. TCS guy finding girlfriend, Chaaya trying to be funny person. Deepti bringing tea for Kalpha types. It is almost always ugly to see someone communicating with an expectation of any kind. There was interesting scenario at the bonfire place. I saw French teacher testing pradeep.

i converse great deal with jey, somaya, kat, amit, devior, pradeep...

Contribution -

• first youtube video, manifesting desire.
• website.

Connection -

• The yoga retreat connection.
• Go out with j.
• The travelling and connection demographics.
• Kormangala social. Toastmasters. Cult. Yoga Class.

Spirituality -

• Tao the ching.
• Jim carter.

Health -

• More conscious yoga practice.

contribution -

• contact page. Conent of landing and about me page.
  • andrew Carnegie.
  • yoga retreat ( how to run an event )

connection -

• Yoga retreat. Yoga class.

Spirituality -

• Realigning what matters.
• Bhagwat gita.
• Yoga retreat. Learn from pradeep and other like minded people.

Health -

• Yoga retreat [ learn from yoga people about their path and what they did, suggestion and all ]

contribution -

• website content + publish.
• first youtube video upload.
• andrew Carnegie + jon
• yoga retreat ( how to run an event )

connection -

• Yoga retreat ( connection and emotional tank ) ( Connect.Play. Assert. )
• Cult. Toastmasters. Yoga class. [ more contact ]

Spirituality -

• NLP being on 24/7
• Tao the ching.
• Yoga retreat. Learn from pradeep and other like minded people.

Health -

• Yoga retreat [ learn from yoga people about their path and what they did, suggestion and all ]

contribution -

• refined design and animation of landing page and about page.
• andrew.

connection -

• The assert track.
• The context.
• Bussiness with hard people.
• Sne.Ras.Dee. Intergration and opportunity/
• The long game.
• Cult.Toastmasters[mecon, dwani, BTM].

spirituality -

• Bhagwat gita.
• Refactored what mattered to me.

In the window of next six months. I would have extremely integrated and clear social conduct. Where to assert, where to connect, and where to polarize. I would have more understanding of intimate relationship, as I will experience them more. I will have more clear expression of myself. And robust view on an interaction.

What I offer is a clean groomed well dressed and in great shape and look. A man with authantic purpose and mission and drive. A good heart. And strong strength. Some one who leads authentically. some one who knows where he is going. Someone with a lot of experience of life. A great movement of progress. Someone with genuine courage. What I offer is character. With polished personality. Play. Connection and strengths.

What I offer is great communication, laughs, story, understanding, connections. Someone who understand other person’s state of mind and can calibrate...

Yesterday I met two girls who were interested in me. The first one is ahens She clearly liked me and as we started talking an old guy came and distracted my attention. A blocker. Start forcing no eat another one. And it killed the moment. I feel stupid to stand and move back to older conversation. than for other time there was no space. It seems forced to go in between talk or grab some one like this.

Stay. And observe next time. If you are having a good conversation. stand and listen what other person is doing and saying. Do not leave. Take a strong posture and just observe the daynamics. When he is done resume. If other person seems to be freaky, intentionally moving around and showing extra attention just move on. But the bottom line is stay and listen. Based on the intention you might give non-verbal negative feedback.

If you want to take her out and she seems interested. Ask her...

So yesterday this courier guy called me and he was wiling to deliver the package only to me and not willing to climb to second floor may be because he had some heavy package.

He was extremely aggrasive, his tone was rude, and he was in state of only self service. He had zero regard of my comfort. Even though he was serving me. He was only willing to complete his duty.

He constantly keep shouting until I gave up. His aggression was making me heady. It was a loose-win. And i was on the loosing end.

He clearly was extremely frustated in that job. He seems to really didn’t want to do it but he had to do it. His treatment wasn’t personal to me it was same with everybody. Thats what happens when you don’t choose your life. And hopelessly rebel against circumstances.

I had no direct business with this person. He was employee of blue dart. He had no direct incentive or threat from me.

I...