So, I started dipping in the stream. The judge tries to pull me back.

There was a sense of uncertainty, around where I should put my mat. That leads wierdly should I be front or back. I was confused so first I followed the lead of the groups. Than I was confused. Wether I should go front or back. Have a preference in your mind. Quickly I know it might be wrong or right but take an internal decision, even if the decision is wrong there is nothing lost. It is not a decision of life and death. Close your eyes think the options and take decision.

There is one girl next to me and one other side. The other one was very interested, she started talking, and I made few assumption, “she is married ”, “not my type”. none the less I had conversation and she wasn’t very much my type. Now there is another girl right next to me, very bubbly, indeed not my type, but then i started a conversation...

A vision to cherish, a dream to realise, a journey to enjoy. This is where I am moving. I love the process of change. It keeps me alive. A nice solid next destianation. Built on understanding and truth. Unshakable as air. There is no tightness, no substance to shake. Sometime it is a hard to see when you are too close to detail and in the grip of emotions. But then that state is very imparmanent. Once you can see it is the matter of time you realise it.

Imagine next year and than imagine next 5 years.

I am totally stablized in truth. Seeing things exactly as they are. Unmoved, Disillusioned. Amused. Completely free. Needs nothing. No desire. Ready to dance with anything and everything that life brings. Ready to die at any moment. Clearity of highest level. The level of truth. Laughing at peoples offers, unmoved by their competition.

The work I do is unprecidented, refined, prestiene...

Yesterday I called home, reluctantly. I kind of new the response that would be waiting after I will tell them I am going to Delhi and then meditation from Bangalore.

Papa told me they it would be nice that we should check mom. I didn’t like the indirect idea of indirect communication through me, when I know there is a strong tension between mom and Bhai/Prachi. I replied with integrity and papa become defensive, I asked him to ask bhai first. And after a while papa got it. And than mom took the phone. I didn’t like the disrespect of it.

She started to do her non verbal emotional denial thing. Withdrawing herself from conversation. And I poked her further. And she brusted. Throwing extreme emotions and poision and she hooked my attention.
I didn’t like the way she talked to me, with so much disrespect.

She was fundamentally giving me negative feedback, around I am a bad person because...

There are two streams one I hang out in the places where I belong. Everyday. And than second as I am putting myself out and being in the position of authority. By nature in future I get more invitations to connect with right people.

Just think for the next 3 months, everyday you are hanging out in a place of your interest, genuinely offering them a nicely finished product. Someone who understand himself, and other, willing to lead, uncontrolling, honest, very well packaged, respectful. where do you find such people… have you ever seen anyone like this before ? And I offer this everyday.

Than imagine next 6 months. And than imagine next year travelling the world. Everything built upon the last one.. you conversation is improving, your radar is strong. You have many relationships, and your self knowledge has improved. Your game is supreme. You have master your half and process of...

I have a history with hrishi, he was my manager, Although there is a common values, and somewhat similar spark. There is difference visible in actions. He lives very hatcially. Somewhat unorganised and unclear .Sometime there is self, most time this image he talks from. Ofcourse every relationship has good and bad.

There are two yardstick, is there a possibility of great companion relationship, or is it filling my emotional tank. Or is it just a formality of a past relationship. Or is it about business.

To have a companion relationship, there has to be maturity, common respect and real overlap of sparks and values. There must be authenticy. No common respect, superficial conversation and pretending overlap will not work. Nor I want a relationship of mutual deprecation or fake support.
Both of the person should be willing to put the effort to flourish it. You can also have a...

Now hrishi and me share history, there is a common spiritual spark. A need of meaning and thoughtfulness behind things. At the moment he is suffering severely becasue of the choices he made earlier. He understand and connect with the things I am saying. I can understand what he says. How he feels. He has shared really deep things with me, and enjoys being able to talk to me. There is a true belonging.

There is another side that peeks here and there. The mask and the self importance. There is also unauthentic image he tries to project to other people.

The very foundation of this relationship is true sharing. Deep | meaningful conversations | and real valunerablity . If all we talk about is superficial topics or the images we are trying to protect, it is useless. To make it a safe experience you must start sharing with atmost authenticity and valnurablity the real you. That is the real...

Spiritual -

• refine what matters.
• where to move from here.
• the toltec wisdom.

Contribution -

• research zero to launch, Leo, Jonathan’s. Marie, online MBA.
• select the topic.
• what I would be building around the topic.

Connection -

• the ritual and integration of the process from stream to blossoming relation.
  • mastery of love.

Health -

• Rest until your body recover and eat only clean food.
• Study pose by pose.
• Audit your food article and see if something can be improved.

Yesterday I met j at jumbo than ant and than a pizza. From 5 to around 8:30.

The jumba was kind of fun but it totally drain both of us. And that lead to uncomfortable settings. The conversations became kind of forced. The natural tendency of body was more of relaxing.

In the jumba class I initially felt a bit of anxiety. And that lead me to talk to other people. It was of imparmanent nature. Maybe the energies of the place and other people was such. It does relase the tension and than there is nothing went wrong. Stop assuming what other will think.

In the jumba I have kind of fun. There was a desire to impress other, which with time was relasing. And I started to have more fun than that desire.

J was incridibly supportive in the dance of companion relation. Far more than me she was putting effort to make it smooth experience. She understood this is a relationship building phase.

Spirituality -

• know what matters and creating the next steps.

Relationship and communication -

• know what matters and creating the next steps.

Contribution and finance -

• know what matters and creating the next steps.

Health -

• know what matters and creating the next steps.

contribution -

• Website launch. [ conngratulation ]

connection -

• emotional tank.
• streams
• blossoming a new relation.
• the pipeline [ how much a i need]
• companion date 2 - hanging out with J.
• Mastery of love.

spirituality -

• The voice of knowledge.
• Tao the ching.

Health -

• Anatomy of body.