interesting week, engaged in connectX, a kind of peaceful mindset. not very agitated, and very much in control, I fiddled with ideas of conferences and planning to attend one hackathon this weekend. morning ritual seems to be getting ingrained. dominating part of week felt inspiring. I also started to read book. and I am attending vipassana in june. even though, I did meditation every evening some times I do guiding principle visualisation and other times i just did samatha.

spirituality - this was a very good week. most of the time I was very much in control. I am feeling more presence in the moment. very regularly I was doing wrap and throw sort of instant meditation through out the day. handled situation with hard people nicely. did 2 session meditation everyday. also i got interested in other Buddhist concept like 5 hindrances. and watched a lot of video of dhamma talk.

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I want to spent my evening time for recreational activities, but I am not really sure what does that means. so here is few things I can try

read - ahh those golden days ( few months back ) when I used to read. I really like reading.

music - i’ve never tried it. and some part of me feels quite excited about it.

meditate - some times i just enjoy doing it

try new stuffs - I don’t know what they are but I can certainly figure out

watch video - I enjoy it.

engage with people - I would love to do it. this is also very underdeveloped skill.

beach ! - I always love taking walk there.

as I am not sure, lets explore it this week.

so here is an exploring adventure on horizon and just like every other adventure I’ve very less clue how or where it will take me. at some level I don’t care about the outcome anyway. what I am really interested in, is the process. and an outcome I am expecting is becoming more complex human being. what I really know is it will be worth it.

so for the first sprint I would like to be able to create a well crafter landing page and deployed on live env. I would also like to include this in morning routine for 1 gatka of 1:30 hr.

how simple life would be. if everything would be black or white. but reality is greyish. and this is the situation where it leaves me confused and freezed.

for example, stepconference. a part of me want to attend this thing because of inspiration point of view. a part of me don’t see value of spending 20k INR for a day for this. another part of me is afraid from social gathering like this.

the best approach to solve these kind of situation (which represent a group of situation ), where I am not sure what is the dominating reason. is to resolve it in mediation.

when conflicts like these arrive, just note the question and keep moving, I would resolve it in the meditation. don’t play with it.

in this week. I ended up choosing a product to start building also I asked for akhil’s help and it seems to going in the right direction. mind was not stretched yet I was not even trying. as I result I was entertaining afflictions without knowing how it is hurting me. I kind of get fed up by the end of the week that I took a pledge to be done with this.

spirituality - regular meditation ~30min sessions morning and evening. I was planning to go for 10 days retreat, and was confused all week whether go for tushita or vipassana. i think vipassana retreat makes more sense. so I will go for it in june. it’s almost after 3 months. and this is the time I would like to go for an official ceremony of taking control from mind. for these 3 months I would like to see how much far mind can go. I am also procrastinating small stuffs.

health - the highlight of the week “someone called me I am...

the problem is mind is not fooling around but I am. these days I pretty much always have choice on almost every action I take. it might be true in some cases there is a strong pull of emotion. but I always take a conscious decision to entertain stupidity of mind. and in the process I keep feeding it. and mind knows how to sabotage, and it knows it really well. and it always feels like scratching my heart.

am I under-skilled to tackle mind! I don’t think so. at the very least I stand a chance. the problem is commitment.

every-time I consciously choose mind over me. I feel my self esteem is shattering. I feel like a hypocrite and the pain is 100 fold sharper than any pleasure I get out of it.

I have seen the ways of mind and there is no doubt in my heart, if I allow it will lead me to a broken life. full of regret, sorrow and despair. and the problem is consciously entertaining it in...

so from where we start. what should be the first logical step to start a venture.

one good starting point could be to build a basic backbone framework without taking too much inout from anyone. the core preposition is to connect professionals, teachers, student and maybe parents. with a basic assumption that these people care about it and can use technology, I can create a basic framework.i think I can build something in a month or two.

than it can be sent around for feedback and can refactored in that direction. in my opinion. it shows we are serious about it.

on the parallel it is possible to do market research, what are our options, who are our early adapter and all. and start a basic marketing plan. and once we have our Humpty-Dumpty we can focus, more and more on the marketing side of it.

the second approach seems to be taking input from the actors ( professionals, student...

the one major problem with education in india is disconnect from the industry and body of proof. and it allows to create a kind of bubble where growth is disconnected from goals, and stuff like mugging up and getting good grades starts to take precedent over real learning.

if they only have showed be how much maths matter in programming, I would have put my soul into it.

it makes a lot of sense to me to build a platform where professionals can interact with students and teachers virtually and physically. a lot of professionals are parents as well.

from the professionals point of view I can connect very well with the need of platform, I’ve been to a phase of my life where I was desperately looking for volunteering in school but could not find a way to do it short term where I can share my expertise.

from students point of view I can connect very well, and from parents point of...

masteryconnect impressive platform for educators, grading, reportcard, pinning..

class-dojo amazing product for positive behaviour enforcement

classwallet a very interesting project where school can show their budget and credit can only used from website like amazon, also support crowd funding and charity.

schoolmint admission process management tool

nepris professionals teachers and student collaboration

mytonomy alumni advice video to peer.

socrative an app to do real time quiz.

curriculet an open graded reading platform, crowdsourced reading list.

readingpartners one to one reading partner volunteering.

zaption - content creation tool with video editing capabilities.

securly a web content filtering service

schoolzilla school data management and visualisation tool

locomotivelabs teaching by games

tuvalab data representation tool

noredink adaptive learning system for...

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so sometimes I make stupid comments, sometimes I judge people, sometimes I stuttered, sometimes I get afraid, angry, jealous, pride and whatnot. and in my previous life I would do anything to deny it. even if I accept some of them I would go to extent to hide it from other peoples.

but perspective is shifting towards it. I don’t see them as bad things even though I might feel some emotional noise, and I don’t try hard to manipulate them.

all of these things and my current behaviour is clear manifestation of my inner state and character. and to be honest this is what I am right now at this moment. this is exactly where I stand at my spiritual journey.

why would i manipulate any of these feelings, these are the signposts. they are helping me, guiding me, letting me know where I need to work most.

the best part is I am happy to accept myself with all the good and...