In the bus the conductor a young guy probably had 3rs. changed but gave me a ticket and asked me to collect later. A part of me was agitated, I didn’t ask for the money, this is a repeat occurance and after the episode it was over.

I implemented the if it is available than use your own transport. instead of asking for the help, I notice other group of people waiting for a car to come and I took the auto.

Out of blue ramlakhan bhaiya called and asked for the suggetion for chottu and in the end was telling me I should attend weddings of society. Which I reply softly instead of argument.

The auto driver called me I am standing in the auto stand and I felt irritated.

Today I was repeatedly checking Lin’s mail.

I systematically completed the list of logistics related task.

I worked on dressing well and got kind of lost.

Akhil I could have helped but I didn’t really offer any thing concrete.

I praposed codality and Santu opposed it and I continue pushing it so is with the ashok on 2-3 people team with pure logic.

Again the same frustation followed by energy pattern while solving the aptitude problems.

The incedent with preksha and leaving at signal. and her contiunes decline from home to mast kalander to signal.

Being harsh with the team 3.

connecting with ashok while he was sharing his story I told how I failed.

There was this guy who asked barraged of question to preksha while she was trying to run away.

Today preksha said you are such a sweet guy, and himanshu said you are good in this. both times me felt good and tried to repeat it, although I was at some level clear about the trap.

There was santu again doing the same thing calling that you are done with the project. and I corrected him, another one of those with better solution.

I was working on the challenges and because they were slightly higher in the sense of challenge vs skill I felt really engaged.

I felt tired and sleep in the afternoon.

Himashu disagree in terms of cure fit and fortis and I felt defensive instead of dialouge.

Preksha asked why did not you ask me to drop and I said didn’t saw you while reality was I don’t want to be dependent on her.

Today I faced the challenge that I solving a problem of KillingFish problem the result was with zero output a part of me wanted to quit and work on something else than I decided to work on it anyway and I spent next more than an hour with full of energy on the question I didn’t solve it, but there is this kind of quiting voice which is very wrong and following it is the lose of energy and self esteem, on the other hand if I decide to work there is no problem in terms of energy. Infect I was thinking I will take another batch.

From morning I am feeling a bit sexual.

Instead of guiding team1 I was lashing it out on them.

Today I was doing the exercise after hustling for a while I was planning to give up and then I decided to continue, first I solved the problem and then with 100% remark. seems like it was more of preference for the ease.

I wrote down all the know what matters, now how can I implement it and not loose it and derail from it. tomorrow I will not feel like it is right and do it again. Or I won’t pay attention for sometime and then do all over again, how can I continue to be on the path.

This is the essence, keeping what is important in the forefront of the mind. and then acting in alignment with that.

When I don’t do that I might end up working a lot but that work might as well not be done.

There are times when I need to explore and doing several things to arise to a clear path is ok in that sense.

When I loose know what matters, I also loose bigger prespective and sense of direction and that experience is not a good experience.

Knowing clearly what is important gives these goals there is also tendency to complete these goal asap which is really not the point.

So I recently redo the whole know what matters. and I didn’t feel very excited. It is not important. what is important is that you have this map. and you can take a look at it and you can see where to invest more energy.

Add this in the morning routine and stay there if you feel like doing something else or...

Today In the evening I faced time when I had energy but I was not clear how to channel it. and getting out after every 30 mins does not feel like good habit.

I told team 2 that need to select the project but then I told them.

I saw santu forcing sachin to agree on taking next propel.

I did complete research on know what matters but then I was not feeling very inspired.

As I know what is important in terms of body I quickly arranged the checkups and dental checkup as the opportunity came.

write down the laws of work - tatto the law of works. stress test them and make sure you align your action with the understanding of them.

Build the skill of knowing other’s need - Master this skill see what can you do to actually master it. How to master this skill. and build the project accordingly.

The skill map - Draw the skill map and see where you want to invest time to aquire different skill. Draw it with interest level.

The env. - evaluate different env. and see what they bring.

Team | community and network - The effect of team, community and network.

Finance | investment | riches

The blocker of discomfort | ego | fear | Old habits

The core - Brining the value in others life based on my skillset. This is also one of those skills I am lagging the most.

The laws - There are clear laws of demand, supply, competition and interdependence what ever I do must be aligned with them.

The skills - I posses some skills and constantly aquiring more, a skill graph that tells me which skill to aquire next and how can I acquire it effectively.

Interest and strength - There are certain interest I have and certain innate strength when i am interested in something I put the effort there.

Finance | Freedom | Control - The more finance the more resources, and I would like to be rich.

Team, communities, and network - Network of people and team and how to build and leverage it.

Env. - environment and place makes the huge impact in terms of availability of system and type of communities.

Blockers - My ego, ease, the pain of...