It feels good to come back home and someone is waiting for you. There are transient feeling of first enjoying the kiss, and then hug and then … which soon become less and less important.
There are certain obligations and responsibilities.
Eredicated cause - These cause are either erdicated or on the verge of it, seeing other people having gf used to create disturbance, the loneliness, lack of experience, verginity…
The going away cause -
The new cause -
Relationship with Lin- I was inexperinced in more private. I didn’t share enough, She was doing a lot of things and I was taking advantage in a way, I was receprocating but she was doing way too much for me. I didn’t care about her or us, but mostly about me, My participation in relationship was hesitant. My cause was experiencing not...
There are small things, like regular body maintainece, washing your face, just make a system so you can continiously do these things.
Repetative task just create a routiene. Other task create a logger and time when to resolve them.
I gave reprement to vignesh, there wasn’t a trace of anger in me, He tried to justify but his performance wasn’t matching up.
The standard process of flashing out the ideas and then arranging them.
In the evening it becomes clear when you are going in the unhealthy direction. when you start taking the decision without thinking.
I was waiting for the Lin’s reply and then all kind of justification around why I am doing this to her.
There was maybe the under influence of the principle or otherwise I felt that Instead of building the community I am just acting out of self interest.
Currently there is in between situation with Lin. And I am not clear what effects relationship makes on meditation. There is a desire for the women. This situation needs to be broken down and understood.
+ve and -ve Social behaviour - competition, acceptance, instead of that learning and asserting these behaviour which are better as compare to the pre built ones. regular logger of negative and positive behaviour and actions.
Log the different cause | intention of social - write down the different intentions of social activities, chose yours and then engage accordingly.
log of different laws of social - the logs and appropriate actions.
using daily situations - use daily situations to align yourself with these logs.
This is the highest goal and beyond the thought block.
There are few things I know myself. The nature of observing and focusing.
The intellectual understanding of the nature of awareness and things that are beyond my preception can be gained by the study of scripture, gita, listening to the people who are talking about that.
Then there is practice of vipassana which is constnantly increassing the awareness by relasing the mind and the concepts.
Through out the day I get the opporunity to observe my nature and the nature of mind.
While I am listening to these books my mind start to set that as the reference to the reality and start to give suggestions around how I should change myself and it is automatic.
You can listen to books, and even its ok to have the voice it is quiet temporary. but then you need to slowly integrate in your daily life.
Listening to different kind of people as mentor is a great idea to pick their brain and see what they are doing, listen to their advice and see if you want to integrate it.
Build this muscel when you are listening to other people, paying attention, seeing their reasoning, not taking it as a truth, not being defensive, but putting your reasoning infront of it. practice it over and over again. other people will most likely become defensive and aggresive.
In the time of code reviews there was too much to see that I wasn’t really interested to check and then people are telling me they are still doing the same testing etc. kind of throw me out and I showed disspointment and frustration. then I took a walk on stair then mind wandered and settled down.
Standard process of exploration seems to be flashing out the ideas, and then, arrange it and make actionable, A good idea would be to create the principle around this process.
I am watching videos on linkdin and tom’s channel.
There was a moment when I was walking upstairs when I saw that well dressed girl and threw me off and then came back.
I am paying strong attention to what people are saying in standup and then there are patterns, shantu praised pramod, konark prepare before speak, people are telling what they are doing and occasionally gives the reasons why? or telling what they are...
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