People are going to judge other based on their upbringing and values. Some other people will be able to understand other’s value and upbringing, somewhere someone has some criteria based on that judgement will happen.

This is an important aspect in terms of giving opnion on other people and what kind of people I want to get into relationship with and hangout with in general.

the nature of a person - there is a type of a person, Lin is going to pay back as soon as she received, bharath is sinecerely going to do what ever is being asked of him, I am going to keep looking for the clarity.

the hard working and sincere types - vishvjeet is hard working, amritesh and himanshu are not hard working,

serious and non-serious - oba and alex are serious, I am serious, kaustubh is not serious.

aptitude - given the same amount of time and same intensity of desire, and same level of knowledge...

So I am listening and believing whatever is being told and when someone disagree then I kind of realise well you can disagree.

It is as if like a child in the absense of what I believe is true and false, and while I am not established in the self from where I can see the dance of ego and beliefs, in the realm of ego and belief I am kind of lost.

There is this aspect of understanding other people, People are very quick to measure other people and giving their opinions, The foundation is there story and the way they see the world.

Konark and shashi are passing opnions on vikas. They have no understanding and my opnions very drastically.

I also made assumptions about other people in last batches but they didn’t end up right.

The difference is in values. and capacity to see beyond ones own nose.

How do you judge a person? What are the values which are most important.

So there is a problem solving aspect, aptitude and being able to handle the degree of complexity.

There is certainly the voice in their head, there is practice of subject, There is a degree of tolerance to the frustation that comes with failing and continue any way. There is communication and social intelligence, there is an ego.

The man itself is the voice of...

I am practicing vipassana but at the same time I am not really practicing it.

It appears at certain level of mind, doing and non doing both produce disharmony.

I read goggins and I seems to enjoy that concept of mental toughness.

I had a converstation with akhil, I felt a bit unease, and useless in terms of having a conversation out of kind of obligation. I speak the truth of what I am doing but I didn’t like the general aura of being given the advice. It was at one level about who is right.

Woke up late in months.

In the morning I was feeling harried at the MTR and drop the sock somewhere.

In office I decided to not go to rabit hole, understood it is imparmanent and time waster and wrote down what is important and did it.

Vignesh was working hard I could have appriciate him but again the same urge of being there on time was there while other people were taking their sessions.

There was a strong urge to do something, giving the fact that all the actions and ego types are on the same level, kind of path of least resistance was the worse, why not renounce certain thought process and live better life.

The thoughts will be they are auto generated. there are certain thought processes which are uselsess, and destructive, whenever you identify yourself in the grip of them, relax and release.

and practice better and new approaches.

Different state of minds, different opinions of people, different degree of attachment and aversion in mind.

There is a hope and promise, the promise of freedom from all this noise, I am moving and going to put all my effort in that direction.

Different state of mind, ego and it’s conditioning and the awareness, Working through the conditioning, forging a strong mind and identity and being free from it. learning more about the self, that’s the priority.

Knowing my body and taking care of, and utilising it to the full of its potential.

Purpose, goal, work is another realm which needs to be worked upon.

Lin, relationship and social life.

There is lower and uncomfortable aspect of the voice in the head that is at some level is bothering. The voice is there and the reaction is happening and I am loosing time.

There is voice saying I am dumb kind of thing, I will be recharge when go to vipassana for the day. later I will do that.

There was a girl sitting in front of me, mind gets attracted and then it was playing with it, juding her and all that. The same kind of incident with tanya.

I did move forward in the sense of doing some vue. and graphql and code review.

There was a little bit push back from amit when I was doing review.

I was wondering what is causing the lack of energy at the end of the day.

I read bhagwat gita and it had calming experience.

I was telling ashok about me staying in with and telling parents, instead of listening him and about akhil.

My eyes were slightly fluctuating towards women.

I had this affect of being influenced by other people thought like sandeep and davids.

There was a time when I started counting the breads because my parents were fighting and I was crying in a corner.

I was feeling afraid and biting mom.

Once I went to take my father to come back home.

There was daily fight.

The poor schooling.

Not having anyone to follow.

Getting into masterbation.

My father rolling off his eyes when I was seeing him.

Crying for the money issue in itm.

Wasted a lot of time.