Me was at unease when it found that vikas is coming back.
Parents were very happy about the millet. It was interesting to see goggins video. Going through the extending apps course was somewhat boaring.

I read the news that imran is coming back, and me felt the sense of happiness.

In the afternoon, I was taking break out of the suggestions of the mind. and then general engagement in distractions like watching google for the ticket and all and clicking on the links around.

I spoke that we have less urban and more hard working crowd this time and people jumped on me.

The way I explain things in standup can be really improved.

Evening I had to delay the meditation so I can spend some time with parents.

The feedback I gave tanya can be improved.

Konark publicly praised and I felt the strong upward emotion, and sashi being impressed is even better.

I took my parents to the office and my mom keep talking about money and how money enables to do so, and overly impressed and vocal about it. she was saying the same thing before also but I didn’t take it personally. but when in office infront of tanya I asked them to come out first to avoid some kind of humiliation.

Tanya comes and said very gently namsate and all, and I felt a little unease. sort of wanting to get out of the scene.

In the evening my parents asked me to have the call with brother and her daugther and I said no, later my mom said my brother may not like it, and then I realised my mistake and refactored it.

I did 3 hour meditation in the morning somewhat effortlessely.

I took my parents to MTR and office and vega city and they seems happy.

spirituality -

• anjan chah.
• collected work of raman maharshi.
• writing and updating the laws

work -

• Web security and nodeJs secuirty
• Logging, debugging and performance
• PM2 + configuration
• Building microservices
• CI and CD.
• RXJs and data driven development
• Human readable code.

social -

• Mom is giving me enough stimulation to work on the laws

Health -

• 3 yoga class.

Everything only affects on the level of voice and sensation and all of these things are very impermanent.

The circumstances are ripened for the further spiritual enquiry and the deep spiritual enquiry is the next primary goal.

The life really helps to clean and provide necessary stimulation to grow, see the defects and aligned with the truth.

The romantic relationship is not an obstacle, mind doesn’t grip it, there is febble attachment there, so I am not really worried about it. I will clearly not engage in sex, and won’t be looking for the partner. Having said it, Lin staying here is not an issue. I think this facate of life will become very clear as the spiritual maturity increases. A moderate social life is ok. I am just not going to put more effort into this.

In terms of work I will work as a senior fullstack javascript engineer in a place where I can work in a really furtile...

The awareness is deepening and I am getting more pulled towards awareness, the practice is getting stronger, The interest is getting more there, and there is a clear knowledge that it is beyond reading and understanding. There are certain truth about that state for which the knowledge is also important, The consistent practice of vipassana and with every retreat I am getting deeper in awareness and the affiliction are getting eredicated.

At the moment I can see the movement of me inside me, it is in the awareness before the structure was visible, This aspect of me or ego and its working is where I am working towards.

So the knowledge I am resetting based on daily experience with book of law and refactoring.

There are many aspects of me that are coming into the awareness, like the voice says and then the voice reacts.

A part of the process is passive. On active front regular practice...

I spent time with the farhin to nikhil, help them in a sense of a way I can actually help.

I had another same conversation with parents about buying house, I listened and took their side. it faded away in the evening they were talking about other stuff.

I felt unease that no body is taking the work seriously and took off a little early.

Meditation session was slightly off timing.

My parents told me so many stuff.

It is crystal clear what is important to me, Knowing more about the self and restructuring the mind and vipassana, needs to be done with atmost diligence.

Then there is a career, I am going to focus first to get into the right env. which is conducive to grow. Most likely london, canada etc. and the laws of work.

Then there is social aspects of life, partner, existing relationship. and maintaining health.