This involve thoughts and emotions, and desires and beliefs. This is deeper than reading and understanding external world so those won’t help here. Nor the answers will help here. even the perfectly correct answer.

The first thing is you must get this clear by seeing how this whole process is working, based on your level of awareness you will be able to see things, Even if you do not see all of it, whatever level you see, you can still work with that.

While I am working on this I am not worried about awareness. The practices and play should be on this level. And if you can change it that means you have mastered it.

My actions are weak and unmanly. No amount of reading, watching videos, or any other easy task will do anything more than passing the time. The process and 4 domains are running the life.

The work is inside observing and working with myself. I can do it, it improves everything in life but I am just being lazy. And wasting the most precious time I have.

First thing that I do is see and correct my actions, do the actions which challenges the process, learn to, well enjoy to the process of change.

Work on the layer of mind and change the pattern of action, build it based on principles, not based on comfort. You have to take the actions, understand them, and refactor them, Truly experiment. See, understand, change, access, change….

Your first job is to start the process and build upon it afterward.

What I know is I am the awareness, I know this, and there is a peace there like kind of its nature, a detachment. Very close to that is attachment and aversion and will. after that there is thought and emotions then the body and then the world. Every

Awareness has no problem, nor the body, nor the world, The challenge is in the mind and emotions. infused with attachment.

An idea fused with emotions comes and feels so true,

I start to get the sense of it. A sense that I am not the mind, body, emotions. These are driving my actions and creating the inner states but I am not these.

Patience, meditation, practice, thinking, enquiry, study the masters. and just the patience.

I am the awareness, complete, blissful, infinite, one.

Then there is the inner world. This is where the pain and sarrow and pleasure are. This is where the wheel turns, and this is where I struggle.

Then there is the body, Body has its pleasure and pain, and ofcourse it affects the inner state.

One way of living is this autopilot which is very clearly I am not going to do it.

It is true your first goal should be to know who you are, and do whatever it takes to get there and raise your inner world.

It is better to be a part of communities and have some close friends with whom you can talk and communicate life, this has to be deep and true though, Investing in these kind of relationship in long term is a great idea. Just having dinner and communication about Yoga, Programming, Life, Stupidity, Current affair, Challenges we are going through etc bouncing off each other idea, creating something together, playing, shared pursuits of life.

Now you don’t want to be needy, and there is a side effect that sometimes you need to do things that are not aligned with you to keep this aspect alive. but having this group of people in your life makes life more enjoyable.

In my case, I am in touch with Akhil/Anurag group, I am also in touch with Mountblue group, I can extend it with Amrutha Bindu, Yoga sattwa, any communities I engage with I can potentially build good relationship.

Then i have...

Zirodha app make a first 500rs investment in a mutual funds. It doesn’t have to perfect but you need to be able to make this end to end cycle.

In next 10 years, make sure you have enough money that you don’t need money anymore.

If you make enough investment that pays you more than you spend you have achieved financial freedom.

It can be in terms of bussiness, properties, bank deposits, investement etc. Do it anyway but it has to produce returns of 50K at current level. If It was 1 lakh at current level, I would be completely free.

If I just put 1.40 lakh on bank account it will happen.

Beside investments, I need to have my own house, basic furniture and a car.

I also don’t need to leave a lot of property etc.

My expenses are :

• Rent
• Transportation
• Food
• Clothes
• Education
• Health
• Parent
• Luxury
• Personal expenses [ Haircut… ]
• Buying stuff [ Bed | Mobile… ]

Currently it takes around 50K.

The cost of house will be around 1Cr. which can be used later for reverse mortgage and car and furniture will be around 15 lakhs.

2...

In march and april I will complete rest of the 25 days documentation.

For teaching I can teach Akhil, Santu, Akshaya, Raghav, Preksha, Amrutha Bindu, Lin, Park, Bhai and Prachi, Ayanna.

Once come back, take 2 class every week. and do 5 class per week your self.

Are you talking to a model and personality. Are you talking to a person? Is it feel good because you get lost in the conversation. Is it feel good because it fulfils your desire or shows the possibility of it.

Are you talking to awareness.

How do you know about what you feel? what is the form? the form is sensation or emotion and of course the air of mind.

There is the natural element of social in the world, and it is a progression and strategically beneficial to be in the group because a group can do more complex undertaking than an individual.