Expertise -

• Javascript
• React
• Node
• Postgres
• Docker
• K8s
• Aws
• Anisble | CI | CD
• Microservices
• Serverless
• Redshift | Airflow
• DS and Algo

I am fairly solid in terms of Full stack engineering.

One of the good option is, Get a proper remote job as a full stack Js engineer. | Then move to London or Germany.

Further more I can continue with Intro to machine learning and deep learning. and then C++ and self-driving cars.

On the other front mutual funds and later cost of house and retirement planning.

I wanna continue on the path of mastery as a programmer. Becoming better and better and engineering more and more complex systems. It gives me freedom, comfortable life, opportunities, and as I grow, it opens other doors.

Currently I will complete React and see the open Job opportunity but I have to check with my vipassana goal first.

There are many types of cravings, but feeling and the process is the same. It. gives the momentary pleasure, and centers the mind. In that process, it starts to get re-enforced. The next time desire comes stronger and again. And there is a self-judgment that happens sideways. Sometimes, desire becomes painful and goes away.

It is as if I have griped many desires, I need to learn to let them go one by one, and whatever is left is happiness.

Craving is like a monkey with peanuts, You get trapped for the peanuts. The coal is burning the hand, If I can release the coal, I am liberated. Running around will not help.

The mind has to become unified. and fewer and fewer desires.

Sooner or later I have to learn to release this sweet poison.

Programming -

• Passion | Mastery | Keep getting better | Principle of continuous growth and 10000 hours
• Financial freedom | Freedom to work when and where | Great opportunities, Quality people
• Compatitve Advantage, Demand and supply, High bar of entry.

Bussiness -

• Marketing
• Leadership
• Bringing Value | Solving problem
• Building teams

Finance -

• F.D >> Mutual funds
• Retirement funds and planning
• Buying house
• Donation
• Education

Impact -

• Meaningful service to others

*Goal -
I wanna have optimal Physical health and maintain good body health in the long term.

Status and intermediate goal -
Currently, my health is excellent and I will be focusing on slowly switching my food to more sattvik food and mastering my primary yoga routine.

Futher I will research on strength and endurance training, and see what benefit they can bring into the life.

Goal -
I wanna have optimal physical health, and maintain excellent body health in the long term.

*Food - *

• Sattvik food in moderation should be default - Working
• Learn cooking - Working
• Fruit | water | vegi
• Eat clean and balanced food as default - Done
• Stop all kind of Junk - Done

Exercise -

• Pranayama - Working
• Master Your routine - Working
• Build your own practice - Done
• Complete Yoga TTC - Done
• Build daily Yoga practice - Done

Exercise - Research -

• Endurance
• Strength

Sleep -

• Nither less nor more - Working
• Sleep 8 hours properly on time Done

Cleansing and checkup -

• Weekly Shatkarma - Done
• Yearly PanchaKarma | Naturaopathy - Done
• Yearly Dental - Done
• Yearly checkup - Done

Other -

• Solar Enegry
• Abhyanga

Problem -
The unhappiness is basically the negative thoughts. In my mind, I am failure,
I can not do etc…

Solution -

• My actions are currently - Actually take action ( Reaction ) and prove it, Distract, Justify.
• Observe it, Be comfortable with it, then let go of the root cause, or solve it.

The problem is not in chai but constant loop of nagging desires that comes after it. Is there a way, I can experience it without creating this loop.

Vipassana:
Practice-

• Focus on breath
• Observe the sensations with equanimity and understanding of impermanence.

Logic-

• Attachment and aversions are happening at the level of sensations.

How-

• You become equanimous to ever-changing sensations.
• Your past Samskara comes and if you stay centered they pass away too.

Final -

• You become established in the awareness and then eventually fallback.

The effect I see -

• I am constantly arising on the awareness, and the object in front of me are getting subtler.

Sandeep -
Practice-

• Inquiry on who am I? and What I am not? repeatedly going through the scripture and seeing the truth inside.

Logic-

• The real problem is ignorance, and you have identified yourself with the body, but you are not the body.

How-

• Sravan | Manan | Nidhidhysana
• You listen to scripture and sages, contemplate and then
• You do the self inquiry and see...

What exactly I am trying to do.

One thing is clear, It is a matter of seriousness and effort that If I want to be free from the voice I need to stop what it is telling me to do. I need to learn to ignore it, coming back to the breath, and continue doing my best.

Now today I listen to Astavakra. In that moment it gives the clarity, but I loose it again. I have a listened a ton of these from Michael singer also.

On the other hand, Vipassana, I am not really doing it. Contemplate the different path ahead of you and chose.

The Voice - Since I wake up voice talk about actions, once I do the reaction and the whole process starts, If I don’t it continue talking about taking the action. It is these desires that keep creating the thoughts. Once the desire fulfilled that thought ends and next craving arises. It keep using all new information for creating more and more same underlying desires. The beliefs try to protect themself.

There are two ways to act. One based on mental conditioning, and second based on understanding. The mental feels right but it is a senseless loop, The intellectual one does not feel right but brings sweet fruits.

Mind is just a mind, It is just a radio why I am keep getting identified with it.

There is value in the pain, since it tells something needs to be changed. If I am unhappy I am looking at the shortcoming of my life.

These desires are cascading, Desire for headstand, desire...

The inquiry into self, Not thought or emotions, or relation, or work, Direct inquiry of Who am I?

What is my experience? meditate and write down, repeatedly.

What people on the path are saying? understand and write it down as well.

Meditate.

Understand system of action and reaction by knowing. engage in right actions, practice actions which you may not be doing right now. Like questioning.

The right way of engaging in social aspect. Working together, about relationship with lin. And community.

Moving towards sattvic food, Next level of Yoga.