Managing health long term and being full of energy on day to day basis.

• Eat satvik meals
• 2 times Yoga.
• Dental checkup

Meta Career -
Answering more fundamental questions, and building strategies. What are my strength? What is natural and effortless to me? How can I change my strategy to be. more effective? Explore 100% engagement and letting go.

Career -
Currently, I am going to look for the work for next 6 months, technical work. EE, then I can do Toptal, U.K. team lead, director. I also need to see how can I market myself in long term.

Solving Problems -
What Problem I can solve? What are people’s needs? Product developer course? Can I run an agency? Building course? What problem other people solving?

Learning -
This is already a habit and will continue. Product manager. C++. Intro to machine learning. Self-driving car.

**Finance -
Atleast, I want to live a comfortable life, A decent house, car, and enjoy coffee in Starbucks. Not someone scraping by.

Then I wanna see if I can play the sport of...

Living a married life or my own place is more suitable for me in terms of spiritual growth as well as living a worldly life. Isolation or living in communities like Vipassana is not wholesome for me.

Once my selfishness thins out Lin is a beautiful partner, she is a good person and struggling, I can not let her go through life knowing that I made her life harder.

Her desires are wholesome. She wants someone who loves her, desires her, gives her stability, and be there when she is sick. She is fairly independent, has a good heart, and qualities of a good human being.

She opens her heart and home for me and I just took and took. I didn’t give her comfort or stability, One night she came to my room. Crying and looking for some comfort I was busy playing with myself. I told her that her health issues bother me.

There is a lot of meaningful commonalities between us, Healthy food. simple...

There were 2 kinds of thought process, one originated in self-seeking, the other in compassion.

Selfishness makes things hard. Competing, The choices of where will I get the most pleasure. and struggle of choosing it. The long term effect is you become isolated like Prachi, compete like the old yoga guy.

Compassion on the other hand is beautiful, I had some flashes of it, where I was crying. It is meaningful and softens the heart.

When in the state of compassion the selfish gain seems so patty, even shameful, like eating the burger alone while Pratap is there. or building a big house.

In my ignorance, I took the bait of selfishness, because it tastes good to be ahead of others. And why share when you can eat the whole garbage by yourself. And now like a fish who I am helplessly struggling.

The selfishness has to be let go and compassion has to be cultivated.

• Daily meditation...

There is no conflict here, I am passionate about it. It makes sense intellectually, emotionally, and spiritually. Also, I can’t imagine not doing it. If somehow I couldn’t then It will be problematic for me.

It takes out the garbage from inside, lust, fear, hatred. and all the defilement. and what is left I had a small taste of it, compassion. I saw the selfishness in me, next time it will be out. The problem surfaces in the mind and gets resolved, and it changes the thought process.

It shows me the truth, more foundational like attachment creates the web of desires and the mental struggle. Direct. This access to the finer reality makes life simple, easy, and peaceful. The alternative is very challenging and useless. Just try to fulfill the desires that don’t take me anywhere meaningful. I don’t have access to the I right now and it will be later. It takes the struggle out of life...

Vipassana -
The night practice is solid but night and morning sleeping ones need to worked upon. And before starting meditation I check my why.

Also make a clear manifesto of Vipassana meditation why what and how. And update it each week. Which should be accesiable all the time.

There is the state of Joy withing myself. Once a week, I wanna do one day meditation.

**Process -*
Daily video creation is there, Mindful review is there twice a day, Manifesto is there but it has to be done properly. I largely didn’t consume bad info and I started to take inventory of things that I can improve.

One thing I struggle with is this routine and hoppings. And Habitual stuff.

Selfless service -
Daily metta practice was done in last few days, I felt kind of stuck. Meditations were also there. I started late but start consuming the info of good people. Maybe I can find the place for volunteering.

What I want from my work, Comfort and game, and support for vipassana.

One option is to work for EE or similar company as a software engineer and grow as a team lead, it gives me a comfortable income and hassle-free vipassana. I can also move towards Toptal and freedom that way. I can also do more courses and then solve the problem that way.

On the other hand, I have the idea that I can do course but it is more of the representation of a small business. and then I am learning to do the business. This is change in the thinking and continues struggle and can lead to bigger fruits, complete freedom, and meaningful work.

Let’s do it with next 2 weeks, I am going to create a course on functional JS. lauch in on youtube and Udemy. Then I can take the Nanodegree on Product manager and see if I can spot a real opportunity.

Option 1 -
Focus on programming and get better, EE, Toptal, Work...

From last few days, I am trying to inquire, In which direction I need to move in terms of work. The process is simple I ask few questions to myself, and wait for the answer.

The challenge is the process instead of giving the answer, tells me I need to go to starbucks, all kind of dullness setup, and reply with some other answer. Now If I go to the Starbucks, I can only expect that process maybe giving me some answer. But I know what It will be doing, it will be judging and telling me what else to do to avoid that judgement.

Keep repeating the question, and be patient. You will go through series of emotions and thoughts and you need to be able to observe them, It is like test whether you really want the answer or not.

Let’s set some ground rule, I will do it for 2:30-3:00 hours. Let’s get the max out. If it becomes unbreable you can shorten the time. In this period no laptop or...

An Idea came to my mind. I can just take courses from Udacity and upload it on either Udemy or skillshare.

Now since Udacity is fairly good in research and everything, I am sure there is a demand of course etc. I am skilled in Js as well as creating videos and teaching. So it is possible for me to do it.

Now it is a business, you have a product, people need it. and you need to learn to market it and sell it.

I enjoy taking courses and will love to create the courses, and world also needs it and now I can get paid through udemy platform, but I need to learn to market it. Maybe even hire some people.

If I can sell 50 courses at 2000rs/course. It makes 1lakh. Even when I am not working. I can reach that goal within the next 4 months. and scale from there.

There is not much to lose here. this will at the very least increase my brand identity as a super developer.

To test the whole...

The most practical option for me in terms of work is to take to work in a company for next 6 months. It can be EE or it can be some other company and continue to learn Udacity along the way.

You are a lot more experienced at this point and it will open the opportunity for you for better projects or start your own firm. Both ways you will be handsomely rewarded.

There is another thing this is something that I am very experienced in and keep getting better and enjoy keep getting better. when the time ripen you will know what else to do.

Just directly going for the bussiness is not a great idea. Since it requires long commitment and you rather focus on other aspects like meditation and selfless service.

Although one thing you need to do is, you need to meditate and work on what need you can fulfill. and what problem you can solve.