A thought in my mind is to set the rules for the vipassana is arising, I will go there tomorrow and it will last for the next 10 days.

The first simple rule is to eat the amount that is just enough for the survival of the body, not for the mind, be mindful when you are taking the meal and take less if you need more go and take it in the next round. Never take twice because of the taste.

For the sitting, there are 3 sittings, first two hours and then 3 hours and then 4 hours, and then last one for one hours and so on. I have done 3 and 4 hours before, make sure you go the toilet before sitting, and only get out if you are feeling excessive urination.

In this period you will feel the mental challenge of different impulsive need to break this rule, but It is doable, I have done before, and people like goggins have done it on the crazy level. observe this rule. In between sleep and rest.

The pleasure of eyes is to see a beautiful woman, a beautiful sight, a beautiful diary, A deliberate action to satisfy these desires should be avoided, The deliberate thoughts around these should be released. There should not be hatred also.

In the presence of these, the mind and thought will be activated. Instead of acting out of them you need to learn to see them.

The pleasure of taste should be replaced with the need of body.

The touch related pleasure and fantasies of hurting the body, sexual urges should be let go and should be replaced with simple touch and awareness related to these.

The pleasure of ears are the melodious sounds and disturbances,

The smell is not so much bothering anyway.

The grossest practice is to avoid taking deliberate action to satisfy them, when they origin do not hate them but experince the attachment and aversion of them. and when you experience...

The happiness and sadness related to sense pleasures should be renounced. The sense I have are ears, views, touch, smell and taste. The deliberate action in order to please these sense pleasure should be renounced and should be experienced with a sense of equanimity.

When you think of a sense object, the attachment arieses, from there desires and anger, from there he gets hypnotised and loses the awareness which leads to the loss of intellect, and leads to the blindness,

You should act without the thought of winning, losing, gain, lose, pleasure and pain. by selfless action, you can free yourself from the bondage of action. you have to be strongly determined, those who are not their intellect is diverted in many directions. go beyond the three gunas, and transcend to the Atman. you have the right of action but you are not the cause of the result of the action, you should not consider...

There is a disturbance in the internal life, on the level of awareness, there is freedom. Bhagwat Gita is attempting to bridge that gap. Krishna which represents pure consciousness is giving a lecture to Arjun which represent me, whatever we call myself I.

It is very clear to me that acting out of my current way is going to lead to very disastrous life. Nothing will be satisfied and I will end up creating more bondages.

Krishna is telling how to act in a way that does not create bondage and grief but produce freedom and even peace.

A lot of thoughts about the calling parents here and they were mainly about warning and telling them about how they should behave when they live with other people, I was loosing attention there.

I wrote the insight as they were coming to me, the old insight seems to be useless.

I had to open mail and check and there were the problem in my application and salary not processed. Some degree of communications is necessary.

Eating the food with awareness and the right amount was the good part. I can experiment with having the herbal tea instead of chai tomorrow, as chai induces this later somewhat drowsy feeling.

There was clear movement of fear that I observed when I watched sandeeps video today.

I advised a lot to my parents. how they should behave and correcting their understanding. This is in form the forward correction mechanics, How will I tell about Lin or should I lie was another...

No porn - It is not that I watch too much porn but under no circumstances, I will watch porn, the reason is because of the repetitive nature of desires, and later had to deal with the consequences of the residue of that experience in the form of repetitive nature of the desires.

The experience is very short term and always end in the strong self judgment and unclear state of the mind.

I have wasted a tremendous amount of time and energy in that addiction, it only worsens my life, If I do not want to continue then from here onward I will not watch the porn of any kind.

If I end up supressing my sexual desires, I can release it, but not by watching porn.

There is an external world and then there is an internal world. There are things in the external world that needs to be taken care of, there are things in the internal world which are not clear. Who am I, how the mind works, how to be in charge, what is the truth, how things really are, If I am not body, mind and ego then what am I, how far I need to go, How to disolve the samsakara, how to live a strong life. What is the nature of the reality, what are the cause and effect. Extreme clarity on this level. What to do in every moment. Clarity on this level. I get it, it is vague but I will resolve it.

Then what I wanna do in the world. what kind of work, what kind of relationships. what are the ethics and how I wanna live?

There is a constant stream of suggestions, opposite suggestions, doing an action, it’s counterpart activates, I am holding on to some stuff like will not check mails till next two months.

Then there is drandh sankalpa, you have made a decision, now to stick with that decision you need to face many constant vikalpas, that perticular energy will be gone, and maybe even opposite energy will be there, doubts will be there. somedays you will be tired.

The strong determination should be based on what is right for me, and then being able to tolerate the difficulty arises, the tolerance is the strength.

Breaking a sankalpa leads to lack of self trust.

Infect many people are trying very hard to prove themself against themself.

If I understand and believe it without experientially understanding it, it goes in the book of beliefs. and then there is this need to protect it,

There are past experiences and a clear movement of energy in the heart that can also be called fear. Generally, it is something I heard from someone of course with the strong sensations and the fear is of being wrong or doing something wrong.

Then there is a connecting stream of thought. It is amazing how smoothly one thing leads to another, and how quickly,

Then there this future planning to make sure nothing goes wrong. there is the reframing of the past events where I want to be right.

Then there is this gravitation towards ease and food. and then just some none sense thoughts like I will be getting out of the hell.

Within the thought, there is an I, I don’t like it and I am such kind of person, I am tired, there are all these thoughts and this I is present there.