nitesh sharma

Professional Programmer, Introverted traveler, and Admirer of classics.

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The Model Of Humans

The Foundation of principles is truth, although to align all the principles I need model.

The model which I am working with is, There are set of experiences that happened and it created emotional spikes, and those becomes cause for further action…

The translation of that experience was based on other experiences, before experience comes the desires, these desires are again based on sensations.

The starting point is some need of survival, and love. from there it is developing attachments, and trying to maximize those desires.

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Week #03 Goals.

The Mission Statement is The purpose is to redefined the structure of beliefs and habits based on truth and reality,

Continue working hard, 6-7 and add yoga class after that.

Continue adding more and more new beliefs and your understanding of the reality. Practice it.

Write down the model of the world based on truth.

Good bye to Lin.

English and AI. course.

Basic guidline with maximum self ownership and minimum interference from me, build a model around that and implement.

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Week #03.

Last week, I started the process and start writing down the new set beliefs, self chosen. and start practicing it as best as I can. I make some agreements more strongely and some which are comman sense based on what I have learnt.

I also thought about how to verify if the belief is not true. how to verify the truth and install habits.

I worked hard this week, 7-7.

Now for this week, I wanna continue working hard, Lin is going back, I can start practicing yoga again. Say good bye.

The basic model of reality I am working with is everyone has beliefs those beliefs has voice, people are protecting their beliefs and I am replacing my beliefs.

One is you need to build the model of reality. in terms of mind and relationship, health and work.

The second is you need the unwavering principle to support it.

Start the yoga class and start eating good food.

And then learn english and AI.

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The Incident of morning.

In the morning Lin sent me a message, where she complain about me, and in a indirect manner and telling me I was expecting better.

Now I sent her a message. that I love her unconditionally I didn’t really empathise but told her I understand her and love her uncoditionally based on my principles. and gave her an advice.

Than I feel bad and trying to justify my stance. and getting into the cycle of justification and judgement. which is a clear sign there is something wrong.

So one clear principle here is I do not judge or justify but look at the knowledge what is creating that judgement and place a true statement there.

You need to look at the content at the moment to really trace back to the source at the moment itself.

One thing is I was afraid that I might hurt her. Make her sad. She is in the same state I was in few days back, impulsive and reactive, afraid taking everything...

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DAY #01. Principles.

I need clear principle around sex. A way to figure out healthy breakfast with least effort. Principle around doing something when it is not very engaging [ Grammer ]. Writing down the competing ideas and choosing and sticking with right one [ feeling of stealing ]. Writing down and having the right criteria to judge. Choosing the most effective path regardless of feelings.

For the sex, the one is about getting more strength, second is releasing with unwholesome ways, or blast of watching porn. so there is also the element of balance. and a healthy relationship requires some degree of sex.

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Finding Truth and Practicing.

From the sensation and voice you can trace back the belief, The old experience is the cause but behind that there are desire and knowledge, check it, swap it and make sure it is aligned with reality.

The way to varify truth is to prove it wrong, the another way is to start with praman, undertstand logically, and then understand through experience.

The weight is highest with experience than authority, logic.

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DAY #01.

So In the morning I woke up and Lie down, Stimulating thoughts were there and I rolled on it but quickly pull myself out, I spent some time with Lin. Had couple of fruits and that snack, Came to office. and had a chai.

I sit down and wrote about how can I validate the truth and the process of building a belief. then I had dosa

We did quick overview on rest of the architectures in programming, I completed the Pronoun chapter although I was feeling a little bit disengaged. Then I wrote down some principles from boundaries and 7 Habits. Feeling a little bit feeling of stealing to the point where I switch the screen and start watching the principle video.

I was annoyed by seeing them playing ping pong.

We had daily stand up and than We went to MTR, I was assuming that sashi is not feeling good. Came back wrote more of the principles. and watched principles. Had a quick code reviews.

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How can I validate if something is true.

By the law of reciprocity, you always give more than you take.

First how can I varify if this belief is true, what is it’s weight against other beliefs? How can I integrate it?

How can I verify it?
So sohail gave me his place to stay and I feel more than happy to call him and ask him to stay, in the case of anurag I will not do it.

I did photoshoot for Lin and she was trying different ways to repay. Prachi tried to repay with making food. Shantu did a lot for Konark and konark is trying to repay it. Maybe I took a lot from lin and she is feeling unfair.

There is some truth in this, I can varify based on my own experience. What about the other way around, can you prove it wrong. What are the incident. I was taken advantage by dada. I paid upfront and he kind of start taking advantage.

Anurag intially did it well and was more than welcome to join for me, but later when he turned out...

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An agreement based on truth.

What are the sources of building a belief. what is belief. How do I know if something is true and how can I turn an idea into belief.

The manifestation of belief will always be in the terms of sensation and voice. Belief in itself is not clear. You have to search for it, What you will see is the activity in the chest and the mind.

For example now a thought is being stimulated. I should have played with those kids, Now impression left because there is a belief being broken, Now there could be two causes, one is I shouldn’t be silent, another is I should make good impression, I should be communicable, I made a bad impression on him.

What happened is, very quickly there was sensation, the sensation or discomfort came from the judgement, I quickly started to react on it, instead of checking the knowledge behind it. that old experience is one of the root cause of the voice,

Now that is...

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Equal experts.

So I am going to equal experts, This is another opportunity in the realm of work. How can I handle it properly. Do I know what to do with this.

One is a normal encounter and just meeting and sharing with them. Can I do more than that.

In my case, after this batch most likely I will continue mastering myself, meditations and rebuilding myself. workwise I will get something like toptal or remote opportunity or I can work for some company either in london or amstradem till then I will continue updating myself.

I might be interested in working as a consultant if the opportunity is proper. other than that I am not really interested in other things.

To make the decision you need principles.

For now

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