Vipassana in its essence is first observing the breath and just learn to focus on the small area and that focus will sharpen your attention, focusing on breath automatically take the attention out of the mind, Being able to focus on any point with complete awareness is the key to getting better in anything, It is deliberate practice of being attentive of one thing while letting go of everything else.

The vipassana is being attentive to the sensation of the body with calmness and developing the unconscious understanding of the impermanent nature of them and thus releasing the grip out of them. As we realise not understand, realise the impermanent nature of the sensations, the realisation of suffering out of the attachment of it arises, when that arises craving dissolved and realisation of there is no I arises and that dissolve the ego.

As we observe the sensations of the body, the past...

There is agitation in mind, there is confusion, there is subtle sensation, there is hatred, there is all kind of experiences, there is doubt, there is lethargy. The sensation is usually in the heart area,

The mind or the voice, is usually around the head area, has its rules, there is influence but also disconnect between mind and sensation.

The sensation and thought both influence each other.

There is a finite set of types of thought and sensations and unwillingness to experience them is my limitation.

The mind can learn to be present and calm in the presence of all the sensations. awareness can learn to let any sensation and thought be present.

Awareness is untouched by both sensation and mind, All the tought and sensations are very impermanent.

If you are willing to experience it, it loses its power.

Learn to experience all kinds to sensations and all kind of thoughts.

The way to do it is you need to understand the mind experientially and you need to practice your understanding diligently. You need to understand your tools and use them consistently. You need to weight effect of each action and chose them wisely.

In the realm of the internal world, there are sensations and voice. There are effects of actions I am taking. There is a will which can, if not easily, select what to engage on and what not to, even among the chaos.

There are natural laws in the mind, impermanence and cause and effect are clear.

There is awareness.

There is past conditioning. There are Samskaras. There is body and sensations.

There is an understanding based on lies and there is an understanding based on truth.

There are internal image and sound and then there are external images and sound.

There is an idea of me, self image, There is memories, there is imagination.

The cause and effect is the truth. How do I validate it? and then how do I practice it?

So it is coming from Buddha, a very trustworthy source, Does it make sense intellectually, A tree is born out of the seed and produces more seed if there is anything exist there has to be the cause behind it. now you look at different things and you analyse there cause. Tree exist because there is a seed and right conditions. laptop exist because someone thought about it and then put energy behind it, I believe in true love because I heard from someone and believe it. now you try to prove it wrong. with intellect, I can come up with different reasoning then you need to see through observation.

There is a thought and then there is another similar thought action on last thought is the cause of the next thought.

There is a tendency to quickly jump to the conclusion. If you want to truly understand...

The challenge with practice is it ask for failing, and the failing stimulates the unease and directly hits the need to be right and important. With low self-worth it becomes fearful to act further, No matter how much I read still the emotion will be the same. Effectively recognising, and handling and using the emotion is what truly creates the change.

Learning something is not really that hard if you can take the most effective path, taking the most effective path is not hard but it stimulates different Samskaras which I am holding so dearly.

There is one aspect of the mind that I can see clearly and it is causing the disturbance in the sense of confusion, This part clearly speaks based on my past experience and whatever I agreed upon, My identity is also sucked up there. and it is the foundation of a lot of actions from me. I need to release past Samaskaras and align the knowledge with truth in order to stable it. There are some unhealthy attachments to praise, criticism, money etc. This is the one area I need to work with.

It is as if a shock it comes and disturbs things, the voice starts to give random suggestions quickly. It is agitation, This is a very short period and just observing the sensation is the best choice, It is fairly stupid to try to find out the solution in that state.

One thing I can do is I can accept fully, it will be there forever like a limp. and still carry on forward instead of taking the decision...

The tantrum of mind is becoming clear and febel. I can clearly understand cause and effect of many process in mind. I can see the disturbance mind creates and how old impressions are affecting my current actions.

How duality affects it all. how when a shortcoming surface up I try to protect myself instead of growing. How powerful the hold of mind is.

How simple the system is, just a voice and emotions, How I lose the center when I like or dislike anything.

How the whole process of judgment happens. How being inactive creates the strong turmoil.

Slowly but consistently I am becoming more and more aware of the mind. How even when I know something is right, the action is based on the past experience,

I don’t have a clear answer as what I should to tackle the mind. One thing that is coming into the mind is substituting the actions based on past impressions with principles based on...

This is the first law, and maybe enough in itself that it can be self-sufficient. For my survival, I first must bring value to others life.

What does value mean? For whom I can bring that value? What kind of value I can actually bring? What do I want?

Value is basically a desire or a need.

Some people have the capacity to pay for it, some people don’t.

Some desires can easily be satisfied, like porn. Some won’t be able to.

For most obvious desires there will be cutthroat competition.

Where you spend most money and time will tell you your desires.

Desire can be created artificially. And it is based on cultural aspect as well.

It is obvious, people who are rich can afford more, and will likely to fulfill their most irrelevant needs, If you can cater a service for them, then you can charge a lot.

The first law is, you need to bring value to other people’s lives.
If it is immutable then it can not be proved wrong. So If I am working I am bringing value for my employer. What is the value and how you bring it is another question?

The second law is, there is a consistent change in the real world. The world is constantly changing and whoever is at the forefront of the change will have the advantage.

The law of competition - For almost every need, there are generally plenty of service provider and for most obvious ones there will be cut throat competitions.

The Need - Survival is the primary need that needs to be taken care of first. That means a minimum amount of money needs to be earned first.

Freedom - I need to be always in the position where I am in the driver seats.

Bringing Value - The only way to make money in the world is to bring value to someone’s life and charging for it.

Competition - In every area there is competition, the more comptetion the harder the area will be to bring the value.

Skills - Now I have some skills, and I can get more skills as well, I can also hire more skills,

Getting New Skills - Getting new skills is challenging in the sense of they require to face the failures and failures fuck with the self-esteem.